TourChur

It's torturous man
Feeling like you got to carry that burden
Dealing with the could've and should've

It's just torture, happening inside of my mind
Feels like extortion, wish I can turn back the hands of time
Look what it cost ya, my transgressions had a terrible price
The Lord torched up my sins I'm forgiven in Christ

Sit still and chill
Let's take it back like my first track on reel to reel
The backpack stacked with raps just to build up skill
When I was after trying to get that record deal for mills
I wish that I could have a face to face with the younger me
That would set him straight to walk away from the dumery
Won't let him drive when he thinks he's straight but he's stumbling
Shake him up out of that state, wake up from slumbering!
He's unprepared, I'd try to give him some tools
He's unaware, I'd get in his ear and give him some jewels
Look, he think he's thorough but he's moving too soon
That's not his girl but she's carrying his fruit in her womb
They're young and dumb, they're planning entomb the legume
He's coming up short on funds for the clinic of doom
And the solution to his problem is a thing that go boom
I'd trying to tell him this ain't something you'll recover from soon
You see, now you got to go and live with that
You think the Hennessy and blunts going help you deal with that
You're bugging, now you got to feel the guilt for that
And he don't know it yet but Jesus blood was spilled for that
And that's going make him feel filled with remorse for
The great debt that Christ paid the day He bought him
All the grim things his sin brings and costs him
It's just an effect of sin it brings torture

So your past came back and caught ya
But you ain't know that was going cost a fortune
Flashbacks now harass and haunt ya
It stings just to face the facts now that's torture
It's just torture happening inside of my mind
Feels like extortion wish I can turn back the hands of time
Look what it cost ya my transgressions had a terrible price
The Lord torched up my sins I'm forgiven in Christ

If a genie granted me a wish guess what I would ask him for
A grey DeLorean with a flux capacitor
Then I'd take it back in time to when I had that Maxima
And make better use of my days being a bachelor
Better yet, set the date back to days when I was blasphemous
And put the younger Zae on to Jesus of Nazareth
Wonder how different life would be if that'd happened then
I probably would've sensed a clearer calling to the pastorate
Wonder if I'd still struggle with remaining passionate
Up in the text clinging to the word like asterisks
I would have spent my younger days in peace prospering
Instead I got a story of pain, grief, disastrous
A walking contradiction like a passive activist
Like some sort of a glitch of nature feeling like platypus
I was afflicted with addiction to this rapping stuff
So to scratch the itch spilled more ink than an octopus
What a shame since I've been saved I've been slacking up
It's safe to say what I write today is just a fraction of
When I was out for fame in the game, anathema!
But Jesus got me set in His ways, I'm never packing up
We moving forward so you know that we not backing up
My grungy scrolls close like shoulder holsters with the ratchet tucked
I got the sword I'm going for the geriatric's gut
I told the old me I'm going torch ya to ash and dust

So your past came back and caught ya
But you ain't know that was going cost a fortune
Flashbacks now harass and haunt ya
It stings just to face the facts now that's torture
It's just torture happening inside of my mind
Feels like extortion wish I can turn back the hands of time
Look what it cost ya my transgressions had a terrible price
The Lord torched up my sins I'm forgiven in Christ

For as high as the heavens are above the earth
So great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him
As far as the east is from the west
So far does he remove our transgressions from us

That means if you're in Christ you don't have to carry that burden anymore
Cause Jesus took care of that for us on the cross
That's why He said tetelestai, it is finished
That means your debt is paid in full