Next Time

I've been at war with myself
Ever since the day we met
I've been at war with myself
Before we could connect
I've pushed everyone away when they said
Things I didn't want to hear
I put myself in a position to face my deepest fears
And now I'm here
Writing this song to you and you and you
Platonic and romantic too
I wish that I never hurt you
Feel like I don't deserve to say that you hurt me too
When I look back at our past
I don't understand how I have
Managed to fumble yet another bag
Maybe I just need to be alone

Maybe next I'll listen more
Maybe next time I won't get bored
Maybe next time I'll hold my tongue
Maybe next time I will not run
Why do I suck at love
Why do I want someone
To coexist with to share my life with
Why do I want to commit

Why can I not forget
All of the good all of the bad
Why do I feel like I'll never find a love
That'll truly last
A broken woman out here hoping
Somebody will see her soul naked
A broken woman out here looking
For a connection that is sacred
A broken woman out here hoping
Somebody's daughter will be patient
A broken woman who believes
She's the type who just ain't worth it
I've got some healing to do
While I wait for you
In the meantime baby
I'm gonna be alone

Maybe next time I'll listen more
Maybe next time I won't get bored
Maybe next time I'll hold my tongue
Maybe next time I will not run
Why do I suck at love
Why do I want someone
To coexist with to share my life with
Why do I want to commit

I've got all of this time
I've got the rest of my life
I'd like to spend with my wife
None of this makes any sense
I need you to understand this
Right now baby I need to be alone

Maybe next I'll listen more
Maybe next time I won't get bored
Maybe next time I'll hold my tongue
Maybe next time I will not run
Why do I suck at love
Why do I want someone
To coexist with to share my life with
Why do I want to commit

Next time
I'll be ready for a wife
Maybe not in this life
Next time
I'll be ready for a wife
Maybe not in this life



Credits
Writer(s): Monai Elle, Pieper Beats, Saka Ayumu
Lyrics powered by www.musixmatch.com

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