Keep Moving Forward

You bother people, you should die
Everyone doesn't care, it's your fault
You ain't shit. Fuck you

These are the thoughts that plague my mind
Keep me up at night, these thoughts aren't mine
They feel real, but they're not kind
Don't listen to them, keep moving forward, don't look behind
Don't look behind

Yeah I know you're probably sick of me beating my chest
But it's the only way I know how to express
Just how low my self esteem is, cause I'm depressed
I feel like Oedipus Rex
At the end of day, I'm just a mother fucking mess
And I must confess
These self loathing feelings hurt more than the bruises on my chest
Like, who am I trying to impress?
So nervous about how I talk, how I act, how I dress
The key subjects my brain flags for the printing press
These thoughts my brain fixates on, saying I need to be the best
I wear my heart on my sleeve with a bulletproof vest
I don't work out, so please don't ask me to flex
Complicated, overrated, and yet I made it... and I'm perplexed
At how anyone would like these basic as fuck bars, but I digress
Thank you for listening this long, I have one more request
No matter what you take from this
Please know I'm just trying to do my best

These are the thoughts that plague my mind
Keep me up at night, these thoughts aren't mine
They feel real, but they're not kind
Don't listen to them, keep moving forward, don't look behind
Don't look behind

Now where was I? sorry, had to get the hook out
Oh right, my mind tells me I'm worse than cooked trout
No doubt, anxiety is a fucker, depression is a bitch
I wish I could just switch
From nice to mean, and burn all the bridges
Driving down I-4, wrong way with a fifth
Of pinnacle in my system, that whipped cream flavor
Leaves me in a ditch, but no one can hear me scream
I think I hit a beam
This analogy is getting off track
I'm gonna swerve towards the off ramp
Here we go again, non sequiturs like my gramps
Let's switch it up and show another side of my emotions
Depression is bigger but my anger makes quite a commotion
Running hotter than locomotion
Shout out to all the people that said I was poetry in motion
But my mental waves are like the ocean
It's like raging storms of nightmares, drowning for days
I just wish I could be a kid and play
Or get rich and eat filet every day, but that's a pipe dream
Goddamn, I just wanna scream
You bitches think I can write? I'll prove you wrong
You'll rate me 1 star and sleep on me until I'm gone
Can we just leave people be, why do we need to fucking
Monetize the dead, let them rest with their own songs

These are the thoughts that plague my mind
Keep me up at night, these thoughts aren't mine
They feel real, but they're not kind
Don't listen to them, keep moving forward, don't look behind
Don't look behind

P.S., dear listener, I hope you're well
These moments linger with me, the days that I fell
I feel like my brain is being run by the cartel
Days pass by while I hang on with one nerve cell
Every memory feels like it'll be used for blackmail
They make me feel like a cautionary tale
I know, life can throw more beatings than a door nail
But as long as you get back up, you'll never fail