Wonder

I watched my world crumble apart as I stared, stared into the dark
I turned the hourglass again, hoped that time would turn back then
I won't be the monster anymore
But I can't rewrite history, my demons got the best of me
So I just lie in wait, like the child you betrayed
And now I'm falling apart
Don't know how to mend a broken heart
It doesn't bleed, still I sink further in the dark

Where'd you go when I needed you
Why'd you never say the truth
There is darkness in your mind
I used to shine so bright before the darkness came alive
I wonder where, wonder where you are
Wonder where you are, wonder where you are

I wonder where you was when I was young
I was sad, I was alone when I quickly had to grow up
The storm was rough inside the valley of my mind
As the sand slips away, I slowly start to decline
I've realized the demons that I'm facing in myself
All just agitating anger that I buried and engulfed
As I house a tainted soul, I'm praying for a better path
Burnt all my desires, slowly it turns to glass
A shattered past is left in the memories of those that I lost
As an adolescent stripped of all he knows
Back and forth from many homes, never seemed to really fit
I was suffocating deep inside this coffin I'm within
Trying to hide from all the pain and all the actions that I did
But now I finally found forgiveness in the kid that I had been
Even though I understand all the reasons that you give
I truly wonder what it would be like if you had only lived

Where'd you go when I needed you
Why'd you never say the truth
There is darkness in your mind
I used to shine so bright before the darkness came alive
I wonder where, wonder where you are
Wonder where you are
Wonder where you are
Wonder where you are
Wonder where you are