Still Waters Run Deep

Drowning in my thoughts, feel like my mind's slowly killing me
Been working on myself but all this hopelessness is still in me
Not being worth shit is what they tried to instill in me
for a while they succeeded
Shii I really believed it
In a weird way it was needed
Now I'm healing, it's too many cycles I don't wanna see repeated
& I sure as fuck ain't tryna be the reason
Thru the music I'm bleeding until I'm no longer breathing
I can offer perspective, but can't make you understand what I'm seeing
All my lowest points did was have me waking up my highest being
Charge it to the game, that's my per diem
To know yourself you gotta face the good AND the bad that's within
Sometimes it's my own fault why I be running in place
But not my fault cops love putting guns in my face
I can tell by the way that they don't even hesitate
In those moments I had to accept that maybe I met my fate

Always been misunderstood, it'll probably be too late by the time anybody understands Me
Used to not even be able to go home & feel like part of the family
& don't give me that bullshit about how blood's thicker
Cause in my family all that means is backs turn quicker
Gotta filter out the fake family & fake friends that ain't tryna see you win
But we ain't gotta pretend
You can real life go fuck yourself then go do it again
BEEN a lonely road, bitch I'm still on the dolo
Tryna fulfill my purpose in this world then bounce like a pogo
Don't be scared to ask questions cause how else you gon learn what you don't know?
Life ain't fair, gotta keep a eye out for the low blow
Took the stairs but I been had the top 'flow' tho
Trust the process, gotta make sure I ain't skip a step
Can't sell my soul just to get a check
Been the best, now I'm doing my best until me & Uncle Phil meet
Until it's mission complete
Best believe still waters run deep
One time for the roses that grew from the concrete