Disappearing Acts

This sense of humor
Is well intentioned
But a senseless
Suit of armor
A threat of violence
And for once
Instead of running
I took the beating
Fell to the ground
Where you received me
In open earth and
Barely breathing

I know it's hard
Having to hear this
I am fine with disappearing
We are only changing faces
I'm always in different places

I know your afraid
It's ok
Me too
But it's easy
Just breathing
It's all we must do

Now twenty-six and
I have chosen
The songs I'd like to
Just close my eyes to
Watch the lights go out
Or get brighter
Like blowing on embers
When I exhale
A quiet surrender
There'll be no more fighting
No more trying
Only living
Only dying

I think that staying is harder than leaving
I'm not hurting
I am healing
We are only changing faces
I'm always in different places

So when you get afraid
It's ok
I was too
But it's easy
Just breathing
It's all we must do