I Hated God

Rows of elders a child's thoughts don't matter
Lines of black cars, preacher man waits on silence
but takes the stage and quiets the chatter
I remember feeling bad for Jesus
but was told it was his death that frees us
Should I feel sad for mom and dad
Did they want to leave us

I hated God

What was we waiting for
If I could hold my grudge
Until I met my judge
I would testify
Cuz I'm no liar
Just one more kid
That pain rewired
Before you cast me out
Now I'll raise my voice
Cuz a kid couldn't say
But this man has a choice
Did it serve your needs
To abandon me
To the cruel religious authority
That couldn't keep their
Hands off of me
Was it intentionally
Did heaven hear my screams
What was I supposed to believe

I hated God

I been waiting for my whole life
Just to stand before you I had to die
I thought I'd give you what for,
A piece of my mind
Now I've got the floor
And all I can do is cry
Why did you make me this way
We are nothing alike
And still the resemblance is there
In our eyes it's a look we share
Cutting me down cutting you down
I hated God till now I see him clearer
On judgement day in front of a mirror
I've seen that face before
Every day of my life
This is what I waited for
And now it's not quite
What I expected
I hated God
I hated myself
I hated God
I hated myself
Am I being tested

I hated God

I think sometimes
I lost sight
Of all the little things in my life
That were going right
It was easy to do
I thought God is so big
And I'm just kid
Alone in this world
And God forbid
I almost missed the point
It was myself who God chose to anoint
With the greatest gift while I lived
All those wasted years
I had it within me to forgive

I waited God
I made it God