Drowning, Not Waving

My life would tear you apart
The pain is so glorious, I turned it to art
The relapses heavy, I've crumbled to ashes
I've looked in the mirror and ripped out my heart
Oh, there goes the times that I thought
The moments I feared and the moments with God
The moments of malice, the moments of madness
I'm stuck in my palace, watching the clock

I'm drifting away from this place
Much of my life
I was drowning, not waving
I was drowning, not waving
I was drowning, not waving
I was drowning, not waving
You get the point

I'm growing impatient, might splatter you into the pavement
Karambit knife tricks equals the delta of blood displacement
You're getting pedantic, gotta know your limitations
I might just pop out, celebrate special occasions
I realized my powers are fucking amazing
And these days I feel like I'm closer to Satan
I'm living like Neo and coding the matrix
Red Mangekyou Sharingan, like I got lasik
The hate it I love it, I stand all above it
I'm getting this paper and there's no discussion
There's no limit to all of my glory
I'm the one that's telling the story

But sometimes, the lights cut out
What you don't see, is my self-doubt
I go through hard times, even worse times
There's a fine line that keeps me on route
To my destruction
Drug seduction
Where's the love in
Mindless fucking
I'm getting skull fucked
By my memories
I'm gonna black out
Just forget me

I'm drifting away from this place
Much of my life
I was drowning, not waving
I was drowning, not waving
I was drowning, not waving
I was drowning, not waving
You get the point

Tao de Ching on the first month
I Ching on the fifth
Meditating on my down fall
Well, I'll see you in the sixth
Nah I'll see you in the ninth ring
I'ma kill you like Mike Tyson
What you did is unforgivable
I leveled up with the blinding
Wrist drip flower rose I pose on my foes
So poetic with the prose
This the Edgar Allen Poe Flow
Vaporize you with the gold
I ain't need none of that shit, the context is clear
No one here is the mighty Leviathan's peer
No diff anyone that wants to come near
Collect souls, drop 'em off at the bottom of piers

The price of surviving an attempt
Is immense dissociation
I'm a failed Godly creation
I go mute with no explanation
All my life I've tried
To find the greener pastures
I've counted the people who'd come to my funeral
Looks like I won't need a pastor

I'm drifting away from this place
Much of my life
I was drowning, not waving
I was drowning, not waving
I was drowning, not waving
I was drowning, not waving
You get the point