On The Road

I've been on the road again
Wonderin', wonderin'
Where, I'll, go
I just don't, ever know
I been running for so long
It's time that I met up with them

I wish the toxicity'd stop
Man, it's really pissin' me off
There's no time on the clock
To run mental games and plot
I'll take shots, no Ciroc
Need some heat, up in this clot
But I won't say alot
Nah I won't say alot
I been runnin' so many damn years, I can't keep it up
Gettin' sick of thinkin' if my effort's ever been enough
All my people do you feel this?
I just wanna see realness
Livin' with my demons so evil when I'm blue
I been runnin' so solo man, I wouldn't know a crew
If it run and punched me right in the face what I'd do is
See another fuckin' star, lookin' for a clue
There's so much more to see
I got goals, I got dreams
I got so many motherfuckin' friends,
That are happy with the life they lead
But it just ain't me
I been searchin' for a deeper purpose further than the sea
At the start it wasn't hard but it was further than it seemed
It wasn't purpose I was certain it was me
I wasn't burdoned by the hurt and left it circlin' my dreams
And it returned with an urge to burn me up inside with beams
It wasn't only on the nights
It took hold and seen some days
An invincible array of different layers that were crazed
By the host, yours truly
Yep, I displayed
What it searched for in a home
It wanted more than just a taste

I've been on the road again
Wonderin'... wonderin'
Where, I'll, go
I just don't, ever know...

S-S-S-See what they did to my
Peace of mind
Just visualize so I don't victimize
Myself and let it all slip 'n slide
And get generalised
Listen up or get left behind
That's got me so petrified
I feel the weight, I'm pressurised
Only my fate's what I surmise...
Lately I been lazy I'll admit it
I can never seem to stay committed
I been hibernating, tryna find a way in
To a state of mind, or an ultimatum
As the time goes and my mind's decayin'
Kind of why I'm fighting with my thoughts swayin'
Getting triggered quick, 'cos of games you're playin'
Pick it all apart is what my core's sayin'
Rippin' up my heart, it's my forté'n
I just make it hard, no foreplay'n
No deck of cards, I'm just sauté'n
At a hunnid plus, this rate gonna have me turn to dust
I need some faith I just learnt to trust
'Cos when I solve it all I still got that urge to fuss
I just love them ifs, ands an buts...
My mind's against me but I'm for the betterment
And my heart's my strength till it comes to sentiment
Done bad shit, but I remain a gentlemen
This bout with my brain, don't know I'll ever win
Maybe I won't
I just try an stay afloat
An keep on grindin' my flow
Now it's time that I blow...

I've been on the road again
Wonderin'... wonderin'
Where, I'll, go
I just don't, ever know
I been running for so long
It's time that I met up with them