Just my thoughts

I'm tired of walking around
Fronting like I'm just fine
Like I ain't got murder
And suicide on my mind
Like everythings good'
Like I'm feeling just great
Like cheating on my ex
Didn't even partake
Like I'm so perfect
I ain't make no mistakes
Like she ain't the reason
My heart still aches
Like it's only water
Ain't no tears in my face
Like I really want to be
In this god damn place
Like it ain't a thin ass line
Between love and hate
Like three years later
I ain't stuck in the same space
Like I know for fact
Ima win this damn race
Like this time
It ain't even higher stakes
Like I don't want to be
In higher place
I'm just a log
Burning on the fireplace
Like I don't wear hats
To hide my face
Like I sleep so good
Inside my place
Like it ain't no pain
When I see her face
I'm calm cool collected
And I can relax
Like fuck that Bitch
I don't Don't even
Want her backlike
I'm all here and I got it all back
Like if I get to drinking
I just won't snap. like all that pain' Ain't coming right back' like none Of this is true'and it's just a rap
But is it just a rap?

I need to talk to you for a while
Can I tell you
What's on mind
About the pain
I feel inside
All of this pain
Is driving me crazy
So crazy

Depression is slowly
Driving me crazy
I try to shake it
But comfortable
Where its most shady
A grown man
Yet I'm still crying like a baby
Knowing damn well'
This ain't the way
My mom raised me
Beggin everyday
For something
To come and take me
Wish that somthing
Could just come and wake me
Every little miss hap
Does more than just shake me
I thought I'd be alright
Till the day I lost my baby
Somehow
I felt like
She done remade me
even chemically
Became my lil remedy
I called her krytonight
Who knew
She'd be the end of me
I mean'
I Should've known
She'd be end of me
Ripped me apart
And snatched out my recipe
Now I gotta deal with him
Having
What was meant for me
Come on man
That's fucking crazy
I can't beleive
I lost my fucking baby

I need to talk to you
For awhile
Can I tell you
What's on my mind
About the pain I fell inside
All of this pain
Is driving me
Crazy
So crazy



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Writer(s): Sharmeen Simmons
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