Positively Pessimistic

Wake each morning
To the sun still shining
Wonder why it has the nerve
My mental healths declining
Like don't you know there's people Tryna wallow in their sorrows
I'll manifest some overcast let's try Again tomorrow
All type of friends that'll never Confide in
I could try to seek help but I'd think I'd rather hide in
My Own little get away I've always Love fly in
If things can be better I would've Already tried it

I'd say that I'm positive writing
Expect for when I hear my family
Always Fighting
I'll keep it to myself and hate the Bullet I'm biting
Keep in my room so that I'm never Sighted
Has this all been a type of passage of Rite
Please tell me I'm wrong and to go Own with life
Maybe I'll get better with the words That I type
A letter to my younger self with Zealous strife
So I'll walk this sunny day
With my head down
I can be around beautiful flowers
But I'm tapped out
I could have so many plans
And I'd still back out
Things I wish I could do
But I can't count
If my bucket was full
I'm seeing bottom of wells
Like well I can't go
Cause I wanted to dwell
In a place
Where I feel like myself
That's what I'll call
Sun shine in my cell

Wake each morning
To the sun still
Shining
Wonder why it has the nerve
My mental healths declining
Like don't you know there's people Tryna wallow in their sorrows
I'll manifest some overcast let's try Again tomorrow
All type of friends that'll never Confined in
I could try to seek help but I'd think I'd rather hide in
My Own little get away I've always Love fly in
If things can be better I would've Already tried it

Each day we're closer to apocalypse
I'll sit back as we're burned away Wondering who has plotted this
I'll enjoy every second of the sweet Serene nothingness
Only to regret something I did
Oh ya I have a list
And I'm tired of the smile that I try To lift
I'd say that my glass is full and my life Is bliss
And that I'll never ever worry about Another wish
But that'd be a lie cause I'm clearly Taking the piss
Have I been doing good I can never Tell
And now I'm even seeing every color As pastels
Dull but everything is smooth
And Mattel
That's my childhood and it's an Endless battle
I'm trying to get ahold of myself to Rattle
Some sense and dabble
To perfect my babble
To finally paddle
Before I put myself on the gallows

Wake each morning
To the sun still shining
Wonder why it has the nerve
My mental healths declining
Like don't you know there's people Tryna wallow in their sorrows
I'll manifest some overcast let's try Again tomorrow
All type of friends that'll never Confined in
I could try to seek help but I'd think I'd rather hide in
My Own little get away I've always Love fly in
If things can be better I would've Already tried it