Regrets

Tell me bout those fuck ups
And how you plan to show me what to do to help us
My niggas gossip like your girls
I'm understanding now who I should let into my world
Passion only works when it's reciprocated
Can't say i love you when I don't, that concept way too jaded
Go with the flow and end up somewhere you don't want to be
Ain't gotta lie, just tell the truth and what you see in me
I've had women come to me
And they'll offer time and attention like those are the things I need
I'm conflicted with moments I hesitated
And suffocating from thinking of now and if I were free
Things I couldn't tell my family
When everyone has their burdens they're trying to solve alone
Worried I don't answer
But I'm just wanting to distance from everything on my phone
Addiction doesn't shade me
And still I'm giving in so if you love me please don't blame me
Habits kinda crazy
I've been having breakdowns in my mind on the daily
What I've accomplished ain't enough to keep my head above the water
I'm tired of trying to float
Want to get back to the days
When an interaction with those that I cherished would bring me hope

I guess that's how it goes
Moment of weakness, pray they never get a hold
Help me when I'm low
Never heard but can tell that everyone knows
And I'm falling too far
Where the hands don't reach no more
You can see all of my scars
Tell me what you're waiting for

I'm not perfect, but I try
The image of myself within your mind wants me to lie
Trying to fit all the depictions
And even those with drive are forced to recognize their limits
Never understood acceptance
You're welcomed by the masses but yourself cannot accept it
You're out of place, then that's respected
Cause everyone wants freedom they gave up as an exception
It's not hard to be yourself
Rather harder to find the ones that can understand how you are
When everyone is growing up trying to hide all of their flaws
And cut deeper into your scars
I'm not faulting anyone
When you're only doing what's best that you feel is for your survival
Hope the people you look up to aren't breaking the image in your mind
If that's your idol
On a personal level I feel the same
And I truly want those around me to see me like I was them
But don't get twisted cause when it comes to this music
And putting shit in your mind I can tell you that I am him
Yet those moments start to last a little longer than normal
I know I'm not in a mental state I agree with
How to not give in to vices
I'm suffering in my silence while constantly taking hits

I guess that's how it goes
Moment of weakness, pray they never get a hold
Help me when I'm low
Never heard but can tell that everyone knows
And I'm falling too far
Where the hands don't reach no more
You can see all of my scars
Tell me what you're waiting for