Soliloquy

Traumatised from the funeral
I'm not a family man but the effect on me was critical
They're singing songs that are biblical
And I don't even know the words
So I stand and I observe
And I start to feel perturb
Coz my lil cuz is tryna sing but can't get out the words
She's crying so loud he's not even in the dirt
And holding back this pain made me empty all reserves
Like fam I'll deal with it all this talking makes it worse
But thats what makes it worse
Coz I internalise things when I know should've learned
And I never call for help when I'm flat down on the dirt
Coz it made me self reliant when it hurts
Turned me into a giant with these words
I always stay silent and observe
Because intentions are revealed in how a man delivers words
That's why I watch my steps when I'm walking on these curbs

This is my soliloquy
You won't find these sounds in the ministry
You know I try my best but it's killing me
Know I try my best but it's killing me
Like they're tryna take my energy
But I can't let them get to me
It's like they're tryna get the best of me
So I put these pain in these melodies

I don't even need to theorise
Coz I can take it back to real life
Because it gets to man most times
You could've lost your life that night
It's real and it's facts
And it's hard to stomach that
I was away, out the area not there to have your back
And I know you got yourself and if you're pushed you will react
But we're brother in arms I'm not tryna hear that
Coz It's deeper than rap
There was man outside
Dons on a push bike
Couple man in a ride
And it's fucking with my pride I wasn't there by your side
And Fam I know you're aite
But it's the principle my guy
Because if you bleed then I bleed that's how I live my life
Coz loyalty in this ting bro is so hard to find
That's why when I find it I'm grateful every time
Coz you've always had my back since garden primary times

This is my soliloquy
You won't find these sounds in the ministry
You know I try my best but it's killing me
Know I try my best but it's killing me
Like they're tryna take my energy
But I can't let them get to me
It's like they're tryna get the best of me
So I put these pain in these melodies



Credits
Writer(s): Morgan Griffiths
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