Eulogy

Now in these fateful hours
A weakened stalk supports a weightless flower
A ghost roaming to this day
To wish for death
Irony unjust in the end
A wicked joke at expense of the dead

For reasons far beyond my knowledge
You wished for a home
Though the feelings that shook your bones
Were just a failsafe so you weren't alone

I fell into a darkness
That plagued both of our minds
As the gardens wilt and decay
I wish once more to change that night

I cant forgot those years
Exempted as a comfort
Your voice a distant thought
Exactly what I needed most
I'd try to treasure all life
The sense of dread it hangs high like the scythe

Lying there on that square
Gasping for air
I heard it every night
How could I know?
How could I care?

That my sudden lapse of judgement
Had dealt this hand
And now the seeds were sewn

I stood beside you once
Empty of all comfort
Except now to say that your love
Is smashed and gashes at your veins

I felt your pain
& in those throbbing nights I see
Those broken edges in my
Sunken, hallowed, doubtful dreams

The lone wolf who cried wolf
Never to grow were these orchards
A vein collapsed
In front of my eyes
A death of mottled colour
Yellowed, purple in demise

Reminisce & relinquish all thought and just let it go
And cut away the guilt
They say the blood of the covenant is thicker
Than the water of the womb

I'd sit & count the days
Kept composed as i held my poise
I forgot the sound of your voice
And the dulcet sound of your music choice

I fell into a darkness
That plagued both of our minds
As our gardens wilt and decay
I wish once more to change

If I could say good bye
Just one last time
I'd make you take back
Each time you wished to die
This pain resides
If only you knew you
Were loved so dearly from start

I fell into a darkness
That plagued both of our minds
As the gardens wilt and decay
I wish once more to change

Though you're no longer with us
Just please know that we'll meet again someday