Depression

I'm in a world that has
No protection, I've been stressin
Load the weapon, keep a Wesson
Bought a vest, Then I can
Watch my steps, cuz I been vexed
Don't want no hoes, don't need the sex
I learned my lesson, I'mma

Stay alone, inside my brain I roam
Can't find peace at work or when at home
Don't want friends, Cuz I can't trust a soul
Can't determine who is friend or foe

Trust it, I don't want nothin
Everyone says that they care, but they're frontin
Ask for advice and they looked down disgusted
Laughed in my face till I start throwing punches
Fuc it

I can't believe that you hoed me
All that friend shit was baloney
I was too loyal, but ain't wanna be by my lonely
Made a few bands my lonely
Now my homies wanna smoke me

Bet if you touch me, you die about it
Been hurt so much, I can't even cry about it
Been too honest to niggahz who lie about shit
Send another threat, bullets gon fly about it

I'm like Percy Miller, meaning bout it bout it
Load my mag full of hollows, can't ride without it
Run your mouth when I swing
Your teeth flyin out it
This is not what you want
Can't believe you tried it

Bitch you thought I was weak, knowin that I wasn't
I gave trust, when I knew that you can't be trusted
I stayed down for the cause, was at every function
I was out on the bloc in a gang injunction

You were in the house playin and watched movies
I was unloading mags, like it's call of duty
Hurt my heart, when they told me, that you gon shoot me
But you know where I'm at, niggaH I ain't moving

Nah
Y'all just disloyal and flawed
I gotta destiny, so I keep weaponry
You can't delay me at all

I gotta family, that I gotta carry
I want a wife, who's built like black canary
My heart is colder, than mid January
Marched past my haters, they're in February

And I'm in the future
Stressed till your bald, lookin just like Lex Luther
I got that retro vibe, drums like Lex Luger
I don't like auto tune, but I love future
You up a pole on me, bet I'mma shoot ya

When I had nothing, I still gave my all
Prayed we would win, and you prayed I would fall
Now, you will never hear from me at all
All on my own, so alone I'mma ball

Leave me lonely
Friends turned on me
Hoes fake want me
Racks stay on me
But I hate me
I don't want a sorry
No forgiveness
Hate you bitches
Lay in ditches
Tried to play me

Cuz you

Hate to see me rise while on the grind
Hoes can never utilize my time
Focused on my future and it's bright
Darkness made me thankful for the light

Jealousy got you, out here in your feelings
Watch who you speak on, in terms of a killing
You niggahz sweet, like cavities not filled in
Make a false move and I'm bombin your building

How can you hate, but I only showed love
I elevated and pulled people up
Struggled for years, I got it out the mud
Gave y'all the tools, y'all tried to set me up

Low self esteem, killed me in teens
My family ain't believe in my dreams
I would lash out cuz I couldn't find peace
Ain't been the same, since my cousin's deceased

Gave her my heart and broke in pieces
I don't think I'll ever forgive the cheatin
Looked in your iCloud, the texts weren't deleted
10 Years of friendship, with horrible treatment

Couldn't stay focused, my school life was bogus
Niggahz would pic on me cuz I was homeless
Stayed into fights cuz I ain't stand for hoe shit
Based on my face, there's no way you would notice

Hated my life but I'm fighting the odds
Stopped selling weed and I got me a job
Stopped hangin out with the homies that robbed
Built me a team, Minamoto, the mob

I gotta grind till my flow is perfected
All the negativity's redirected
I got the money, and I'm well respected
I cannot lose it all to my depression

I gotta grind till my flow is perfected
All the negativity's redirected
I got the money, and I'm well respected
I cannot lose it all to my depression