Dead & Alive

What happen to the game?
This shit is foul
Ain't nobody rappin now
They switchin styles
That shit isn't versatile
That shit denial
See, y'all thought y'all had it, hmm
Y'all don't have it now
Everybody hurtin but don't wanna do the work
See, I be hurtin but I put it all in a verse
Change my frequency
This a different type of hertz
Being sober now comes with its own perks

I never thought I see the light of day
Consuming darkness every other night
I drown myself in self pity
I was always feelin victimized
Accepted things that I can't change
Cuz nothin ever stays the same
And everybody dies too
Some even dead but alive too

Man, that was me for the majority of my life
Since a minor I struggled
I had trouble on my mind
And I couldn't juggle anything to make it right
Everything felt deserving
I was still asking why
Why this?
Why that?
Why me?
It doesn't make sense
I was like this for some years
My escapes wasn't clear
Ran away from my problems
Made my problems reappear
There they go, here we go
I been grievin, I can't let go
I'm holdin on, I lost control
Travelin road only takes a toll
I wanted out so I had to bounce
I had to take a different route
So, I had to map it out
I had to keep goin even when in doubt

I never thought I see the light of day
Consuming darkness every other night
I drown myself in self pity
I was always feelin victimized
Accepted things that I can't change
Cuz nothin ever stays the same
And everybody dies too
Some even dead but alive too

Yeah, we been through some things
That we don't talk about
So we hold it all in
Til we actin out
Yeah, we been through some things
That we don't talk about
So we hold it all in
Til we actin out