Ambivalence

I see our Build-a-bear
On the shelf in my room
I need to move on
I've got lots to do
But it's so hard cause
I'm not doing it with you
I need to find someone
To fill the void in my heart
But it feels so messed up
But this is only the start
Of this new sequence
Where all I can do is grief

Cause I
Never felt so goddamn alive
Can make an ocean out of the tears that I cried
Goodbye
Goodbye
Now I
Am getting all these goddamn restless nights
Whatever I am punished with
I guess I will just take it
I will abide

That caramel glare
I see it everywhere I go
It gives me shivers from head to toe
Its everything that I know
Don't act like you
Didn't do
All of that
Dumbass stupid shit too
Don't lie you know its true

Cause I
Never felt so goddamn alive
Can make an ocean out of the tears that I cried
Goodbye
Goodbye
Now I
Am getting all these goddamn restless nights
Whatever I am punished with
I guess I will just take it
I will abide
Abide

I guess this is part of life
But I think its lasting too long
(Lasting too long)
When you told me to change you were right
Now I'm sitting in my bed writing this song

Cause I
Never felt so goddamn alive
Can make an ocean out of the tears that I cried
Goodbye
Goodbye
Now I
Am getting all these goddamn restless nights
Whatever I am punished with
I guess I will just take it
I will abide
Abide