DeLorean

4, 3, 2, 1
While entering the next big chapter of my life,
I look back and see the past
12 months as a chapter by itself
I wish to share what I've learned
Over this message I'd like to name
To my past self,
Life a comedic bitch ain't it
Strife where there should be bright changes
Light is hidden in the dark ranges,
Plight in every night, going crazy,
Wore my heart on my sleeve
Had the rug pulled out under me
By my unseen enemies
By the unseen, the unseen
Had bridges burnt, I cut clean
Chapter closed, I cut scene
Muted those, who doubt me
Who downed me, who drowned me
And now we move on down street
This way right here, follow now please
Lesson one
Blame yourself for what you did
And nothing else
Play the blame game, all the damn same
But the cards is what was dealt
Saw the sunset like a blank check
Chose my path
On the flow graph
It's mine,
The ways I waste away
They're mine
The trust I gave away
It's mine, but now comes lesson two
Hanging up on the noose
Ay, double down on the booze
Grab a gram of the juice
You got freedom to choose
So get smart and save your crystal heart
Learn what are and what
Are not the moves
You playin a beautiful game,
But with cheaters, sometimes ya still lose
Sometimes people don't grow, nah
They shrink and they blow,
Keep doing what they do
When surrounded with fools,
I don't know what to do
Don't like starting a new,
Heat buildin on the cool,
And it's building
And building
And building
And building
And-
Three
Know that if you wanna grow
Know you gotta let it go
Though you all emotional
Tryna be all vulnerable
But hurt and heal go toe to toe, whoa
Five rhymes in a row for the,
Nickel dime to my throat,
Trickle down every woe
Little frown as I wrote
These lessons ebb in every low, four
Wanna get revenge, (yes i do
Show em how it is, (show them how it is)
Tell you what instead (tell me what)
Peace'll bring you this, (my God)
State of mind,
Yeah, if you wait for time,
Let the healer do the healin, wait
Instead of dwellin let go of the hate
I'll admit, I got lessons I still haven't learned,
Wrongs I try to right
But it hasn't worked
You always try searching out solution
But sometimes the only option
Is to live with what the truth is,
It's ruthless resolution, like Luna,
Going through the new moon
So we love when we're full
Wish it was that simple
Crumbling under the stress,
Known for the smile but every time
I always struggle, my mind is a mess
4 in 15, pulling big green
Out my phone screen,
So i read,
Yeah, I got big dreams,
Whatever that means,
I'm on top feels like I'm dead
Clocked out while checking in
Long drought, I'm weatherin,
I just wanna feel good again
I'm on top feels like I'm dead
Clocked out while checking in
Long drought, I'm weatherin,
But I just wanna feel good again
Before I go farhan, just promise me this.
Tell me now that you know my pains,
That you won't change a thing.
Tell me you'll thrive on the highs,
And grow from the dips, cause if I didn't,
I wouldn't be who I is