Relinquish

I've been through a lot the past two years
But every period of anguish and despair
It made me stronger

Ayo, Kold Kwan
A sharp knife to a shark's life
Oceans flow in a dark night
Where the orcas go, they carve right
To orchestrate devolved sights
The calm before the storm right
Torn from deformed bites
We settle scores with scorned fights
And peddle more of the same shit
Starlight like Cambridge
I shine bright, my face lit
Despite sorrow, embrace it
No path that is painless
Been burdened by my debts
Regrets worsen, I feel low
I've been heart broken once
But won't be broken by these woes
I'm not rude, I'm facetious
Will I cut my life to pieces
Not quite so, I'm Venitian
Rowing boats over grievance
In aqueducts, I'll be Roman
Quench my thirst, with a Trojan
Lead a horse to the water
If it drinks then I be moaning
Bottled up is my tension
Floodgated with intention
Open up, no more stressing
Release the freed ascension
Lesson as a prepubescent
Is keep the inner child guessing
Roll my sleeves with rough edges
Bring me to life, Evanescence

If you don't got a lot to lose
Then what the fuck do you have to lose
As if you got something to prove
To all these female cockapoos
That mock you, don't rock with you
Parrot shit like cockatoos
Cuz apparently you talk your truth
De La Soul like Posdnuous
They bring you down? That's asinine
Don't give em care, they lack your shine
Life's too short to past the time
On bastards that just sap your mind
So let it be and let it go
Relinquish to ebb and flow
Wanna bring some peace to mind
So here's a piece of what I know

Felt heavy lacerations
Own lack of self care
Tortured by my aberrations
Haven't loved myself dear
Magi holds adoration
A landslide of admiration
Staggered trance I have been shaken
Shattered is the ego now
Vulnerable and honest
I stand firm to losses
I hobble, been admonished
But refuse to walk to my coffin
Accrued is resilience
Reborn from catharsis
The part for me that's hardest
Is to finish what I've started
But I'm working hard to be better now
Did the best with what I knew then
The past is an illusion
Transmute a buck from my two cents
Can't always tie up loose ends
Cuz closure isn't guaranteed
Only thing that is for certain
Impermanece, my carried creed

If you don't got a lot to lose
Then what the fuck do you have to lose
As if you got something to prove
To all these female cockapoos
That mock you, don't rock with you
Parrot shit like cockatoos
Cuz apparently you talk your truth
De La Soul like Posdnuous
They bring you down? That's asinine
Don't give em care, they lack your shine
Life's too short to past the time
On bastards that just sap your mind
So let it be and let it go
Relinquish to ebb and flow
Wanna bring some peace to mind
So here's a piece of what I know