Porch Thoughts

Outside
Mobties
Clockwise
We outside outside outside
I been on the porch rocking back and forth thoughts was in my brain
Was tryna hold me down from going outside
Grass is green on this side I been talking with most high
Cut my demons off cause we was having mob ties
Screaming paper chaser I forgot chase to my chase my dream
I had burnt out from running counter clock wise
I was trapped in my head and my heart was afraid
Now we outside outside outside
I been on the porch rocking back and forth thoughts was in my brain
Was tryna hold me down from going outside
Grass is green on this side I been talking with most high
Cut my demons off cause we was having mob ties
Screaming paper chaser I forgot chase to my chase my dream
I had burnt out from running counter clock wise
I was trapped in my head and my heart was afraid
Now we outside outside outside

Kilt the old version of me got no tears but caught the body
Feeling like I lost my mind for thinking out of body
Feeling like the plane was crashing this shit kamikaze
Feeling like its no more me that's living up inside me

Kilt my older self he start to resurrect subconsisly
Reminice on times I would smoke somebody tree
I was fourteen loving girls more than more than me
Getting slimed go through depression that shit was a sport to me
But I can't let my homies see I was hurting so I just covered up
Every piece of pain I felt eased to my heart and snuggled up
Teddy bear cuddled up
The outside me is is chuckled up
Life a roller coaster but why god ain't say to buckle up
Now my out side
Me and my life got mob ties
Friends boarded off to school
Please don't come back mouse size
Parents biggest enemy I told they kids think outside
Could tell you how to move but you gotta use yo own mind yo own mind

I been on the porch rocking back and forth thoughts was in my brain
Was tryna hold me down from going outside
Grass is green on this side I been talking with my most high
Cut my demons off cause we was having mob ties
Screaming paper chaser I forgot chase to my chase my dream
I had burnt out from running counter clock wise
I was trapped in my head and my heart was afraid
Now we outside outside outside
I been on the porch rocking back and forth thoughts was in my brain
Was tryna hold me down from going outside
Grass is green on this side I been talking with my most high
Cut my demons off cause we was having mob ties
Screaming paper chaser I forgot chase to my chase my dream
I had burnt out from running counter clock wise
I was trapped in my head and my heart was afraid
Now we outside outside outside

Suffering from things I went through as a kid
All the emotion built inside I'm bout to pop the lid
All of the cries I held inside could flood the city bridge
All of the times I lied to self deserves Apollo gigs
All of the times I tried to tell myself it was a fib
Asking god for signs but don't believe the he give
Acting big and bold but I can't face what's really real
We are not perfect never was and never is
Let it go it hold no use
Before it hang you on a nuse
Once it got you then it got you
It ain't tryna accept a truce
I'm jut tryna tell the truth
While you still live in yo youth
If you don't kill older version it's gon creep up and break through
Affect everything you do
Make you feel like you been crused
It's the main reason why you ain't get up and go pursue
It's the main reason you compare yourself to checks with blues
Check the clues life was built to lose you can't be the fool

I been on the porch rocking back and forth thoughts
Was in my brain was tryna hold me down from going outside
Grass is green on this side I been talking with my most high
Cut my demons off cause we was having mob ties
Screaming paper chaser I forgot chase to chase my dream
I had burnt out from running counter clock wise
I was trapped in my head and my heart was afraid
Now we outside outside outside
I been on the porch rocking back and forth thoughts was in my brain
Was tryna hold me down from going outside
Grass is green on this side I been talking with my most high
Cut my demons off cause we was having mob ties
Screaming paper chaser I forgot chase to my chase my dream
I had burnt out from running counter clock wise
I was trapped in my head and my heart was afraid
Now we outside outside outside