Sadgasm

Forget the thoughts attempts and commitments
Empty words and the loveless intentions
But I can't forget the way our hands intertwined
When we were anxious
And maybe in love for a time
I still think of you sometimes

But you're still gone
And I'll be here
Alone beneath a
Shattered reflection cut short of obsession
I wish you were no one

Honestly
When was the last time
You said I love you and meant it
Cause I can't think of a time I knew you weren't lying
I'll never
See you again once all this is over
Trying not to
Need you I can't
Continue

But you're still gone
And I'll be here
Alone beneath a
Shattered reflection cut short of obsession
I wish you were no one

What happened to the nights where we'd just sit around and talk
Where we'd open up about our thoughts
You don't come around here
You don't come around
You never come around
You'll never know what it was like
To sit alone
To sit by myself
Lying by myself

I
Wont
Lay
Alone
Any longer

I
Won't
Wait
Alone
Any longer

Sometimes I wish you were dead

This is my resignation
From the pain so you can put me down
Cause I tried to see it through but we're through
And nothing you do now could make me ever want you around

But I can't keep missing you or waiting for you to call
Because it's tearing myself apart
And it's getting harder and harder for me to be a good fucking person
I am who I want to be now and it's no thanks to you
The things you did will haunt every relationship I have henceforth
I am the self destructive god of my own creation
I am better because of this
I am my own fucking person
And that's more than you could ever say about yourself
I am more