Solar Windfalls

The view
Through my window small
I couldn't tell you why
I've always felt so drawn to
Solar windfalls

I'm closer than ever to an answer for Bowie
Yeah I turned to face the strange
But what can life on Mars teach me
About the richer man's change

I'm disenchanted with leftovers received
Small gains from buying inglorious days
I still head for a new debt
I may already have paid

What have I become?
Pursuing shiny desires
Points of light above
Keep me majorly wired

Is there even a place
At the end of my trail?
Or will I endlessly trace
A line that's destined to fail?

The pale blue dot fades
She is to me ever darker
Ever farther she wanes
And the chasm grows starker

Oh I do look back
You should know that I wonder
But I've travelled too far
Since you gave me my heart

Start, I feel I still need a start
As I plunge into the dark

The oceans you hold
They are unfathomably old
They have stories untold
I will neglect to behold

Though they lay by my side
It were as if they could hide
When I turned a blind eye
With a mistaken pride

What I left there below me
I can't point to anymore
I can't sense in my expanse
The directions you taught

Once again I am sailing
I couldn't be with you
I don't know and I won't
How you view the truth

Now I'll look for another
The truth's handsome brother
A fantastical farce
To what end? Cries the mother

Waves from where I began
Compel me with a notion
But this voyager will chase
No more pearls under the ocean