Heavy

I can't really think of nothing right now
There's a hole, not a heart, as it bleeds, never beats now
Her voice fades into memory, but I still see
Her lying next to me when it's dark out
Feel the rhythm of her breathing when shes passed out
Kisses before bed but now
It's just a whisper bringing

Memories in the dark
We're still lovers when we fucked
But the distance from your heart
Though we're just a breath apart
The weight of which is

Heavy
Does this feeling fade
Cause lately
I've drowned in your eyes
Currents call, to be sailed in the tides of
Your eyes
They rise, I fall
But maybe
You'll save me

Your fingers through my hair
We promised each other into forever
But what are promises if we weren't ready, you were the right girl, right time, wrong frame of mind
And I could see the cracks, we thought we sealed were back
Were we slaves to one another's needs, or just one night stands on repeat

I've learned that love is a fickle thing
I've built a future that we'll never see
I've fantasized on lives that'll never be
You're gone and yet it's still a part of me

Yeah, we'll always have those memories
Losing you meant losing a part of me
We just weren't meant to be
So this is how it feels

This castle made of dreams
I once thought of you my queen
But I built a wall of fears
And you went and left me here
The weight of which is heavy

Baby, hope you're doing better
And me, I'll love from afar
I'm always just, just a call
If you need me at all
Promise, you'll get home
Safely