Memories

I made some bad decisions
I made some bad decisions

I got a memory that's fading
Come to think of it
These memories are dangerous
I wonder if they're worth saving
Maybe just let them burn
(Let em burn)
Down to their ashes
Why search for any treasure
When all I see is these trash bags
So pessimistic
If something's in the glass
I'm only seeing what's missing
Emotions never matter
When always wearing a mask
(Where am I...)
A slogan is ineffective
If actions never do match them
(...I'm just mad man walking)
These mad men
They market the path walking
By chalk drawings
Of bodies on the pavement
Outlining proper payment
For somebody causing painful (Painful)
Memories
Stashed inside a nightcap
(Oh this pain is for the Lord)
Drowning down the sorrows
Vengeance is the Lord's
But forgiveness is a long road
It's filled with pot holes
And only God knows
The twists before the straight And narrow
You missing messages
When clicking on an arrow
I shot and killed the messenger
The triggered never registered
(It just never clicked)

Memories are burning
I can't let 'em go
I hear there's only One who
Replacing that pain with hope
Why do I remain
On this window pane
That is broken
Looking down on Memory Lane
Where only crooks live
To kill, steal, and destroy
I got a choice now
To kill, steal, and destroy
I wanna live so it's kill
Steal, and destroy
How'd I forget of this river
With Living Water
That's springing out of Forgiveness

I made some bad decisions
Some surgeries
With some bad incisions
Betrayed some friends
That were waiting in the waiting room
By treating wounds of the enemy
I should've let 'em bleed
(should've let 'em bleed)
Now I'm bleaching up this bad blood
Puddled behind the scenes
Out in public seems we're
eating like kings,
We just some dog chillin (Hm)
Beneath the table while we Begging for crumbs here
The Master's still the Lord of the meal (uh)
We need the passion tho
I feel I'm in the clutches of the beast when we hugging (yeah)
(We need the passion more than ever)
Clenching up her teeth speaking funny
(Red letters)
Visions in her mind's getting ugly
Her Mascara started running
(Read letters)
I see fear in her tear ducts now
Mistaking love for some pure Lust, 'bout to erupt
This leads to meltdown, yeah
And pride preventing that we knelt down there
I would say I gave it all I had
But all I had was excuses
"I'm just a man"

Excuse me, I'm here take
care of all that is broken
Looking down on memory lane
Where only crooks live
To kill, steal, and destroy
I got a chance now
To kill, steal, and destroy
I'm gonna live so it's still
Kill and destroy
All of these memories
Coming to steal my treasury
I'm ready to aim and open fire
(Fire!)

All I ever wanted
Was someone to have my back
When I was backed against the Wall they pushed me over it (uh)
I never would've thought
That I'd be over this but
When I hit the bottom
I sobered up
I got a let you know that I am
Holding up this
Cross that's on my shoulders
changed my walk
And as I'm getting older
Growing stronger than the oaks (uh)
Deepest in forest; Minnesota
The nights are getting cold and
Timberwolves in shepherds clothing
Are hoping that don't notice them
I know it's you who's prowling on me
I hear you in the shadows
But the dawn has brought Awakening
Still I battle memories
Of walking hand and hand
While you had planned to take my life away
Like it was Child's Play
My Buddy made it bloody
But we survived
I'm so alive I couldn't suddenly
Start holding grudges
My judgement on another
Only locks me in the dungeon
The dragon speaks with fiery lies
Trying to murder me
So Now I smile
When the rug gets pulled from under me
And no more sweeping up these feelings causing bitterness
Running me
Deep into the ground until I wither
When the Son gives living rivers
That's springing out of forgiveness