I'd be Fine if I Found Out (feat. Will Cortez)

(And you did that)
(I'm so fucking traumatized and you did that)
(And you did that)
(I'm so fucking traumatized-)

I was so used to the past
I couldn't fight it, I hope I was the last of them
You was a murderer except you didn't flash the gun
You made up lie after lie then you scattered them
Feeding me lies, yea you feeding your demons, your ego
Yea you're feeding me shit, yea you're evil
Never knew such words could be lethal
Now I always find you in different people

Yea I know that you probably matured through the pain
I know that you probably still think I'm the same but-
You gotta remember everything
Yea you fucking changed me up, Ion think I have ever been-

Changed so bad
And you told me that you wished we didn't have what we did then
And I could tell you, I could look you in your eyes
I'd be fine if I found out you were-
I'd be fine if I found out you were, uh, dead
I can't even think about it, when I'm in bed
I'm so fucking traumatized and you did that
Yea you did that (Uh)
Yea you did that

Yea you did so much, I wish I could've-
Yea I wish I was the type who could forgive that
Tried to trust you and I knew I shouldn't
Know how I cope so my brain just tries to forget that
And it's so scary these are memories I won't get back
And I still smoke away the pain, but won't admit that
Know I've grown, been there and did that
Try to protect and forbid that (Yea Yea Yea)
Try to protect and forbid that (Yea Yea Yea)
You know once it changes it can't change back

I cant look at you the same, there ain't nothing that can change that (Yea, Yea)
We in two different cities, we're two different people who could blame that
Like why you fucking someone else for my attention
Cause I could promise you I never caught that message
Everything that you do, is looking desperate
You been selfish (Yea, Yea)
I can tell what we had went out the door and it faded away
You never tell me how you felt, should we break away?
Because at this point it's way more than personal space
This whole time I was blind to your personal trace

Changed so bad
And you told me that you wished we didn't have what we did then
And I could tell you, I could look you in your eyes
I'd be fine if I found out you were-
I'd be fine if I found out you were, uh, dead
I can't even think about it, when I'm in bed
I'm so fucking traumatized and you did that
Yea you did that (Uh)
Yea you did that