Up At Night

All the thoughts I have in my head yeah they really keep me up at night
Finally go to sleep and I'm having nightmares and there all about my life
My body's getting weak and even inside of my dreams I can't get you outta my mind
I've been fighting these demons and wars inside my head and I can't survive

Life is like a dream
Can't explain some of these things
My demons screaming so loud I can't even go to sleep
And if I do they tend to creep into my nightmares
It's dark in here for anyone who might care
Shake when I wake up I'm really that scared
Don't really wanna die here
Insecurities telling me not to fight fear
Bad dreams simulating this bad year
How I lost my first love and every little tear
I'm really tired of dreaming of you
My mind's getting addicted to abuse
Cut or choke which one do I choose
Tell myself lies and convince myself that there true
My mental health is a game where every decision you make
Is based off finding a way to win but you can only ever lose

All the thoughts I have in my head yeah they really keep me up at night
Finally go to sleep and I'm having nightmares and there all about my life
My body's getting weak and even inside of my dreams I can't get you outta my mind
I've been fighting these demons and wars inside my head and I can't survive

3:45 I woke up from a nightmare about my ex
She was dating someone else she's gotten over me I guess
It was a dream one day but turned to reality the next
It always hurts worse when the person that leaves you is the person you'd least expect
When I had that nightmare where you were with him
I thought about cutting off all my skin
I don't wanna live I hate this
We're in the same friend group but I feel pushed to the side
I try to smile but my frown can't hide
Not ready for a relationship why'd I buy that lie
And while I'm dealing with regret and the misery
Your with him probably happier than you were with me
Not really over you but I pretend to be
Act like I'm alright without you loving me
But that's okay cuz I always have my demons to comfort me

All the thoughts I have in my head yeah they really keep me up at night
Finally go to sleep and I'm having nightmares and there all about my life
My body's getting weak and even inside of my dreams I can't get you outta my mind
I've been fighting these demons and wars inside my head and I can't survive



Credits
Writer(s): Noah Hindley
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