I'm Still Standing

Life on life's terms what a hell of a ride
Especially dealing with so much ego and pride
Trying to escape what your feeling inside
All that pain from Emotions with nowhere to hide
It was all fun and games until you lost yourself
Pushing all your feelings down as your numbing yourself
Finding any escape at the cost of your health
Tell me at what point did you stop loving yourself
I don't know at what point or when exactly I stopped loving myself
Finding any escape at the cost of my health
Pushing all my feelings down as Im numbing myself
Yeah it was all fun and games but then I lost myself
Options were there, walk away or give in
It wasn't peer pressure, I was just a curious kid 'n'
Growing up an outcast, I just wanted to fit in
Uncomfortable in my own skin that I just couldn't sit in

I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind
I'm still...

So yeah I experimented, chose to defy right from wrong
Trying to find my place and be accepted, crying out to belong
The black sheep of my family, there was never any doubting that
Sitting under the bridge with eagles and Fleetwood mac
You know the saying it goes "curiosity killed the cat"
Wasn't even deterred by diabetes or a heart attach
Put one crutch down, picked another one up
Countless failed attempts all just to cover shit up
How Depressing the thought, all my suppressing had brought
Me to a life of obsessing, leaving loved ones distraught
Couldn't see all the heartache
That I caused as I'd partake
With a habit you can't shake
All I did was take and take
Pain and suffering with consequences of acting out
Runny noses, muscles cramps, from hanging out
Knock knock on the same door
Lied, stole, manipulated to score
Saying "tomorrow I'll give up
but for now I just need one more"
You know they say, when you fall feel the pain and then stand back up
Cause you were born for victory
Failure has no place in your world
Dale que se puede

I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind
I'm still...

Got Sick and tired of the life I lead, pissing all away, I was merely existing
Woke up to myself and realised, I had to start living
Crawled out from the grave I was buried in
6 Feet deep strung out on heroin
Eyes glassed and pinned
Looking thin and grim
Reaper was closing in
With a beast of a disease that wanted to see me dead and gone
Could only run for so long
Had to face my demons head on
Surrendered to win, no longer could I cope
Went from drugs to hugs when I changed dope for hope
I almost expired, walking blinded, misguided
Saw I had to be honest, willing and open minded
Rock bottom taught me more than mountain tops could ever teach
Saw I couldn't do it on my own, support was at arms reach
Been to hell and back
Now the right steps I'm takin
On a path of recovery that's a journey not a destination
Regain some sanity, some kind of inner peace
Be a father, son, brother, friend and uncle to my niece

I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor
Feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind
I'm still standing