Charlie's Song

Looking at you gives me hope
Sorry I didn't take you to the snow
I promise things but I never show
I know that habit has you low
Yes baby, we are getting old
Saying it often has me lost in the cold
I'm often in a coffin dying slow
Thoughts daunting, Countless pauses in row
Depression in the autumn
Anxious in my brought up
Shout out to my brothers
I'm sorry I'm not there often
That also goes out for you Charlie
I Hope you understand when your older
I love you and that's from your big brother
Don't think I never ever thought of you
I'm in my peak but also in the brink
If I stop to breath I just might sink
My feet feel weak and I can't clearly think
I wish to grab the heat and just leave but I know you would miss me
I'm not as strong as you think but I'm only human
Not a phony just loosing
Sanity from Looney Tunes Ville
Seeing shit that isn't there
I search but I can't find you anywhere
Think that's what growing up is
I hate the world so I clench my fist
I'm up to here with that "I don't have money" shit
Maybe if we were born from roses that didn't have thorns
I'd take you to the shore in a Porsche wearing Dior
And I wouldn't have been that old when I took you to Disney for sure
But that's life, ain't it?
Couple times I could have made it
Crooked ways to be straight in Esco but that's just shady
Not how our momma raised me
Being this broke drives me crazy
Having people shame me
Like it's my fault
Like its the life I sought
Like I had no pops
Like I had no parents when I got home
When I grew up with kids smoking rocks
Kids throwing signs
I had to act tough or get caught calling my bluff
I'm sorry I couldn't be enough
I just know that all of you I did love
Sorry I couldn't help you enough
I tried to give you the love our parents didn't give us enough
The world don't love us and I don't love it
If it were a person Id kill that bitch for hurting you
I'd kill that bitch for hurting you
(Yeah)
Fuck the world, Fuck the peace
When I was at my low you would always come hug me
So please baby know that your a star that shines brightly
When the world thinks of you ugly
Just remember when we would look at the mirror say
We are proud, we are strong, and we are pretty
Don't forget your always with me
(Yeah)
(Don't forget your always with me)
(I love you)
Just wipe the tears away
Tomorrows another day
Tomorrows another day
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Hopefully I will fade
Life is what you made
Don't know if I can make it
So close to just take it away
(Yeah)
Tired of waking up so wasted
I just want make it
Tried of being so wasted
Tired of being so wasted away
Away
Away