Ill or Evil

Honestly, I think it s a question of who you surround yourself with because it its sad to Think then that you won't confide in people as much because you don't think they'll care And you'll just manipulate them instead of-
But like use some manipulation tactics here and there on the people you don't really Truly care about and all that stuff
But I really think you should maybe put more effort into finding people that genuinely Make you feel happy

Been through it all so I'll risk it, paranoia got a nigga coughing and spitting
Stability lost and I miss it, won't get it on tic get prof, and ill flip it
Escitalopram, molly I mixed it, amphetamine now all of us tripping
Stability lost and I miss it, now my niggas saying that I'm lost and I'm wicked
Been through it all so I'll risk it, paranoia got a nigga coughing and spitting
Stability lost and I miss it, won't get it on tic get prof, and ill flip it
Escitalopram, molly I mixed it, amphetamine now all of us tripping
Stability lost and I miss it, now my niggas saying that I'm lost and I'm wicked

Say I sound like someone else as if that is a compliment
You can go try to stab fifty-two times and watch me vomit all of my protons and boson Onto the pavement and even then
You still won't ever see me spill Suttin postive
Still think that I'm incompetent
When staring at my accomplishments
I got to this
Thank god that this
Really taking off, rocket ship
I guess everyone has already said it
I guess I need a different mouth to go and tell it
Had albums at 16, never begged the question
What would I do if my impact suddenly began to lessen
What would I do if it wasn't symi that's interesting
Roll up a roached up fag mind has me stressing
I thought this was a blessing, but it's feeling like a curse
Cuz what if I don't improve with every fucking verse
I've lost so fucking much but I'm still sitting in the dirt
I really put in work, my flows frozen I'm not letting it go
Symi did it, but symi did it alone
I'm selfish you need help I won't pick up the phone
Don't tell me I'm cold, I know, tell me what needs to go
Teach me tricks to the intricate syllable control
I can never be broke, how is my nigga saying sleep
I need to get Ps, 200 bags in a week
Never again will girl shake me screaming baby please, baby please we got foodbank at Three
Whilst I'm passed out from speed
And the fucking sertraline
Got me yawning in my sleep
Havent eaten in a week
Been scranning on my teeth
And the inside of my cheek
She can see bones when we fucking
Fucking Looking like a neek
Intrusive thoughts and episodes follow me like racism
No more meds in palm come, look theres a blade in it
If a nigga talk mad, fuck that I am staining him
They tyna kill me? Nah fam I'm tryna give him trauma
Fuck him, smack his bitch for his fucking chat
Stab him in front of his daughter dying to see his blood
Spike his newborn with crack then force bleach into his lungs
Got cables ties and drugs why the fuck do I need a gun
If you don't kill them first, they gonna put you in the mud
Give a fuck about nothing so I'll laugh at a dying cunt
Trust humans fuck that, rather put them in a blunt
With Mac1, Sterling tobacco, Ammo, Skittles and some Runts

Been through it all so I'll risk it, paranoia got a nigga coughing and spitting
Stability lost and I miss it, won't get it on tic get prof, and ill flip it
Escitalopram, molly I mixed it, amphetamine now all of us tripping
Stability lost and I miss it, now my niggas saying that I'm lost and I'm wicked
Been through it all so I'll risk it, paranoia got a nigga coughing and spitting
Stability lost and I miss it, won't get it on tic get prof, and ill flip it
Escitalopram, molly I mixed it, amphetamine now all of us tripping
Stability lost and I miss it, now my niggas saying that I'm lost and I'm wicked

So it may also just mean some reflecting on the environment you are in and who you surround yourself with
Because if it's genuine people who aren't there for you when you need them and people Who aren't supportive and Don't encourage you. Especially like following music and Don't listen to you or don't want to help you or just be There for you
Especially when you're going through episodes and stuff well those aren't very good People for you and they're not All that kind if they don't support you and want to be there For you