The Cycle

Though he's intellectual he thought he was a god
His ego is erectable but peace was in his font
His violence indigestible to me he was a fraud
Steady pointing fingers just to even out the odds
To discontinue the cycle
I needed therapy but even then I was stifled
I mean allegedly I got a gift but a schiz was in my pedigree
And evergreens the only relief
And then I turned 16, erotic dreams, but the past came out
Six feet my fathers genes stretched them halfway out
And I got daddy issues no one said it was cheap
But fuck it in the end he cut deep
He lead by example but then his duty relieved fuck them kids
It'd take a hundred years for me to just trust that bitch
And though he was abusive and his treatment was rough, for my father I got nothing but Love

I'm unbothered my daily process I bleed through the cusp
On my momma she got me watching the streets for the scrubs that's my development
And they watch me creep through the mud success its evident
They claim I put my fist in his mug you got some evidence
Friendships that I keep fucking up I weep in disgust
In the streets I gotta reason with lust, I preach for the love
See me going stale that shit would be unlikely
Got a couple fans they wanna be just like me
My momma raised me in poverty instilled in me honesty
Remember to count your blessings but flex them with modesty
Never fold under pressure cuz you can't help if they gossiping
If you get you a Lexus you best invest in a policy
But when it comes to love I never learned from the best
Why she standing at the door with a burn in her chest
Why he lying on the floor with a gash in his head
You can't imagine what it's like to have to ask if he's dead, watch the
Pendulum turn my fathers sins won't be forgotten
Residue burn the drug concoctions solve my problems
And the depression got me reaching for the stem of relief
Peer pressured to the needle and the sins on repeat
And then I thought I felt connected if they could help it
A higher power reaching down to grab it the bitter sadness of my desire
Telling me to toss that shit
But until we meet again you best resolve that shit



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Writer(s): Jayden El
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