Control (feat. Tanner Heiner)

Y'all don't think I'm serious, talk seriously
Paint my nails all black, it's carelessly
Whisper in the phone, but it's furiously
Faster than my day off. Call Ferris B
I don't think that I can think tonight
On the brink when it's drinking night
Buckles 'round my neck, it's getting tight
Use a Deluminator I could use the light
Back to year-long temp eighty-eight
Back to the Future on roller skates
Pack up my things, I'm leaving. Yay
Lack of power so I clip the chains
I can't control so I wanna fold
I can't control when I get old
I wanna be young, don't wanna be told
I wanna sell my soul, so I'm sold
I want her to say no when I'm being stupid
But she says yes in my dreams, lucid
Changed with the moon like Remus Lupin
I'm subject to her like I'm her student
What I can't control, I let God control
I hate doing that cause he gets cold
Don't believe in God, but I believe in souls
I'm a control freak, I'm all mental
Stop by and see me later in life
We'll be more than you'd think, tonight
We thought it'd be more than one time
But your ex wouldn't stop coming by

Last Friday night, she said I'm gonna put my mind away
Feels like I could die any day
I think I'm not okay
But
Last Friday night, she said I should've died yesterday
I didn't want to kiss her anyways
I don't wanna stay

My aunt gave me some good advice
About sex and drugs, not to roll the dice
Not to go around and risk your life
Then she bought me coffee with the ice
I hate addictions in my mind
Like non-stop wanting to grind
Sex in the body is alright
But sex in the mind is a wildfire
I feen for different kinds of love
Something everyone dreams of
No one gets it truly cause life sucks
We keep looking for it we can't give up
I wish I could make her fall for me
I'm not desperate, I'm not horny
I just want love, no ignoring
I want a girlfriend before I'm forty
I wish I could just control these things
But I can't even control me
I can't control what other people do
Even when I really really want to
I can't always have the best of grades
I can't stop the suffer, put my mind away
I couldn't make her love me last Friday
But I could make myself die any day

Last Friday night, she said I'm gonna put my mind away
Feels like I could die any day
I think I'm not okay
But
Last Friday night, she said I should've died yesterday
I didn't want to kiss her anyways
I don't wanna stay

Sometimes I wish I could just leave
Year-long fall with the colored leaves
That'd she'd see me before I leave
Wishes don't come true, that's my relief
If wishes came true, everyone's would
All the hateful ones that aren't good
We'd all die like I think we should
Save the planet like I wish we could
She wants back to him so she's crazy
I'm the better choice but I'm lazy
It's three am and I'm getting hazy
Still thinking 'bout how she's amazing
It's three am I need to go to sleep
Watchin' movies instead of countin' sheep
Falling in a rabbit hole, it's getting steep
I could clean my room or I could sweep
But I just get more tired through the night
Can't go to dream town, didn't sleep tight
Battling insomnia, it's been a fight
Charge a phone, don't need the blue light
Passing out so I can wake up to hell
Hate waking up, hate it when they yell
Crying inside, turn my tears to gel
Hurting inside but no one can tell

Last Friday night, she said I'm gonna put my mind away
Feels like I could die any day
I think I'm not okay
But
Last Friday night, she said I should've died yesterday
I didn't want to kiss her anyways
I don't wanna stay

All fades to black
All fades to blue
All fades to black
All fades to blue
Crying inside
Don't tell the truth
I can't control
I can't control
Crying inside
I can't control