Happiest

Can I take another hit
Another sip without me judging myself?
I couldn't handle it
One time, I couldn't walk, but I could talk
Imagine that and it's a fact
I got a devil on my shoulder, but sometimes it's in my head

Tried to cut it off, it bled
Yeah, of course, it caused me pain
It is me and I am it
Considered more than a friend
And I admit, I like it dark but not that empty
I could go with a machete
And cut out everything that won't serve a purpose to me

But I am self-aware, and I do many things
And one of them is not to pull you like a puppet string
I bite, I bark, I lead, I fly, I play, I never sting
It's the things that don't seem to matter that give me wings
I drowned a million times before, but I never forgot to sing

Liquor was my best friend and some weed, I was a fiend
A bunch of other-, but I'm cleaning out my closet
Picket signs and skeletons, clean

How does it feel when you let it go?
You move your body like never before
You're like a girl in a video
A film about kicking down the doors
Always wonder when you slip and fall
If you're tired, don't be shy to crawl
Back on your feet, it might take a while
Face on the ground, but you keep your smile

Crack my knuckles, yes, I think that I'm invincible
I don't answer to you, just out of principle
It get really low sometimes, but it is beautiful
It's crazy when you know something
But at times it just slips away

Ricochet out of your mind, thoughts are kept at bay
I wonder why my legs are shaking
That's some scary shit
I hope for it to stop, but it's my brain that's controlling it
I'll put the kettle on and hope this herbal tea relaxes me

Got some shivers while I'm writing all this truthfulness
Pouring out of me like I'm a tipped cup spilling my madness
I'm the happiest but saddest at the same time
I climb to reach my prime, but I got baggage to unwind
I'm fine

Really I am, and when you pry, I'll decline
Privacy's my sanctuary, safe is divine
I feel the safest when I know that what is mine is mine
I'm a mime with a finger up, that's a sign

How does it feel when you let it go?
You move your body like never before
You're like a girl in a video
A film about kicking down the doors
Always wonder when you slip and fall
If you're tired, don't be shy to crawl
Back on your feet, it might take a while
Face on the ground, but you keep your smile



Credits
Writer(s): Marlaena Moore, Isaiah Isegohi, Jean Philippe Lefrancois, Go Michael, Emma Berger Kovacs, Pharenz Abellard
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