Dramamine and Acetaminophen

Naturally wake up in an argument.
its just another shitty day.
my heart was broken.
my eyes were tired.

It baffles me about how we were acting towards another.
We loved each other.
at this point ive been up for a few hours.
Already drinking, on Pink Whitney.
the pressure began to weigh on me
with the weight of a 1000 suns.
i broke. i poured a pill cocktail on the bed and just stared at it.
poured myself some pink whitney and just started chowing down.
im just forcing handful after handful down my throat.
70 to 0 in minutes. the anxiety left.
i grab my guitar and play my favorite songs while i wait.
I was surprised by how calm and welcoming i was.
i sang my last word, strummed my last chord,
Then slowly drifted off into the bed and fell asleep.
i woke up to you frantically and angrily yelling at me
About why i didnt let you in the building.
i started mumbling in my delirious state.
you shout at me asking if im high right now.
You stormed off i fell asleep immediately.
You came in yelling at me about what this empty pill bottle is
Becoming painfully aware of what happened.
Your anger turned into panic.
you start urging me to get up
You called my mom, despite me arguing about it.
then you called the cops.
i was sitting in the living room as the paramedics talked to me.
As we were walking out
i made direct eye contact with the person
I asked not to bring to my house.
I stumbled down the stairs and into the ambulance
That was parked dauntingly outside the apartment.
Fading in and out of consciousness
While the paramedic asks me more questions
I woke up randomly in this hospital bed.
I had no idea where i was,
What time it was, or where any of my things were.
i spent a good hour and a half throwing up and
Condemning myself for failing.