Expensive Pain

Expensive pain sums shit you can't leave alone
N you can't be down n trip that they don't answer the phone
To beat the system gotta be one of the clones
I know some niggas who was trappin out the place they call home (But look)
Growing up to fast kept doing wrong like it's right
But it's like only you know bout the battles you fight n that's Life
He think no answers to his problems so he high as ah Kite
Once chance at life n I'm gone fight till this shit turn out right
Everything not worth it keep it its holdin you over
They gone try to break you breathe and just hold yo composure
You in the game stand tall and remain as ah soldier
But if you take ah couple losses can't let it control you
Ik it's bad momma I'm sorry it speak to my soul
Made ah few bonds let em grow cuz they'll never get old
You ain't around n it's on them never bend never fold
If he live by it keep him round cuz he stand on the code

I could never be to optimistic
Who woulda thought we come from days we ain't even have a pot to piss in
Clock was tickin
Block was wicked
Shots was hittin
You ever came home and everything was missin
Didn't know no better we weren't prayin we was wishin
Momma tryna act tuff so she sniffin
The bath water onna stove hissin
And the microwave warm spinnin no 360s
We turned our life around that's 180 if ion thank god for that I'm crazy and ian crazy
I can't harp about my past
All the things I didn't have
I just use it as motivation to get to first while I'm in last
Ion speak down on my dad cuz I'm blessed to still have one
My momma was a real man cuz she raised me without one
Rest in peace to those we lost I hope you there when you awake
Pray to god can't tell you to forgive me cuz I make stupid mistakes
Never point fingers the devils the only one to blame
In this system we know our hearts can stop but we ain't know they easily break
That suffering put a toll on me I'm in debt to this day
By myself I know that's something I can't pay that's expensive pain

Trails and tribulations we go through them shits like everyday
Hard to get respect when it's niggas around who love to hate
But I can't force my hand
I let god go through the give n take
And I hope maybe someday it's god payin my expensive pain
Think cuz I'm up north it's safe (Fahh) gunshot over there
It's crazy how one moment can start a generational curse of tears
Sometimes we can't do nun about it but don't doubt it
It can shine everywhere even moments when it's tragic
I swear I love my og pops was there to so I can't give him heat
Was feelin lonely bro nem told me get up and back on yo feet
Love them real talks wit the guys cuz they keep it G
Ain't nun like a lil hope on yo side cuz we all tryna eat