Dying to Live

Why it seem like it's harder to live
Why it seems like it's harder to win
They say the good live a longer life
And the pure got more to give
Fuck I feel like that's a myth
You could turn a bad situation to a good one
You could turn a housewife into a hoe
Or you turn a hoe right into housewife
You could take a thug nigga from a stove
And then introduce him to real estate
You could take that lil off the block
And show him sum where new
Where he'll be amazed
I'll bring that lil nigga up on stage
Influence him to try and go a different way
Everybody go through their phase
So it depends if they wanna go
If bullets start flying due to drive bys where you gonna go
Don't answer no question with no question
Cause you don't know
And I don't know
You laying on that pavement feeling like time is up
What the fuck
Wanna call your bitch hoping that she up
She playing like she sleep but she up fucking
She might be the main one that lined you up
And she moving on she don't give no fuck
Long as the rebound run it up
Momma travel far working hard at work
Pops ain't even there not even there in the picture
Your same gang gang ain't no where to be found
There ain't even there
Too high to even care
Now you feeling like it's you against the world
And I'll be dam I be another a victim
I'll stand over him and zip him up
For all my pain and my thoughts
I might pick up bad habits like the cup
Pour up 8 overflow the cup
Put elbow in it when I pour the cup
I know I'm setting myself up
Hope live long just wish me luck
And the fucking government don't make me feel no better
I'm just trying go about my way
Live my life and be free
See me have my appearance up to par
So I know they gonna tell me freeze
Criticize me cause my skin
And cause I wear my feelings on my sleeve
Yeah
And brother you don't gotta me twice
Cause you know ima spin
Bitch nigga gotta pay for what he did
I just hope god forbid we hit a wall
I pray that you keep a tough skin
I pray that i keep a tough skin
Cause our faith they gonna try to bend

Even through that hellfire I praise the most high
I need me wings
So I could soar the sky and fly
Cause I'm getting tired walking on the ground
Feel like I'm dying just so I could live
Feel like I'm living just so I could die
Even through that hellfire I praise the most high
I need me wings
So I could soar the sky and fly
Cause I'm getting tired walking on the ground
Looking at the bigger picture I wont crop it out
Need a Change and I need it now

Move a pack or make a scam
Do what I gotta do to win
Make excuses just to justify what I'm doing
But it's all a sin
Mama know it's all a sin
Shit I could've stayed in school
But I figured if I stayed in school then I wouldn't win
And I can't discriminate between a foe or a friend
I just play them both
And I play them close
Tread lightly on my toes
Pull up show face
Then I go ghost
Why it be the ones you love
To change course and turn
God I wanna know
I know the truth hurt the most
So do I wanna know
I don't really know
I feel like the hood is just another maze
I wanna escape
I can't think of any other reason I broke into your safe
Left no trace
Or I'm saving up to beat another case
Hate to feel remorse so I feel a bourbon with a 8th
And smoke it to the bud
And take it to face
I need love
I seek love
And No Not any kind of love
I need a authentic kind of love
I seek love
Need it like a drug
Baby tell me if you got
And if you got it give it up
What the fuck is love
Can't find love
I even went on google search
Shit ain't come up
So I'm yelling fuck love
And putting all attention to my funds
And giving love to my gun
You gone miss me when I'm gone
Or when on the run
I like to go party and turn up on the weekend
I like to go out and set trends with my friends
But when I'm alone I can't take it I can't sleep in
I need to search deep within
In myself
That why I be quick to reach out and go help
When all reality I'm the one that need help
I got a couple problems that's sitting under my belt
I think it's about that I hang up my jersey on that shelf
Even through that hellfire I praise the highest
I need me wings
So I could soar the sky and fly
Cause I'm getting tired walking on the ground
Feel like I'm dying just so I could live
Feel like I'm living just so I could die
Even through that hellfire I praise the most high
I need me wings
So I could soar the sky and fly
Cause I'm getting tired walking on the ground
Looking at the bigger picture I won't crop it out
Need a Change and I need it now