Just a Sign

I've had a lot of time
To think these past few months
About who I really care for
And what I really want
In my life, my career
Where I want to be in ten years
And sometimes I just don't know
If I'm doing this right

I've had a lot of time
And I'd say I've had too much
Silence follows me everywhere
And I've really had enough
Of the voices in my head
Making my stomach feel like lead
And my heart cracked stone
I just don't know
What's going on in my head

And I don't understand
How people think I'm on my way
To some grand future
That I'll bring about someday
I had big plans once upon a time
But it's been months since I've felt fine
Maybe it's just a sign of these times

I've had a lot of time
But nothing lasts forever
Once all this is over
I don't think I'll want to remember
All the distance, all the pain
That I caused myself to make
A hole in my chest
Though I'm trying my best
There's still something I can't shake

Cuz I don't understand
How people think I'm on my way
To some grand future
That I'll bring about someday
I had big plans once upon a time
But it's been months since I've felt fine
Maybe it's just a sign

I don't understand
How people think I'm on my way
It just feels like I'm taking life day by day
I felt hopeful once upon a time
But it's been months since I've felt fine
Maybe it's just a sign of these times