Moved Away

Reminiscing
It's all I seem to do
It's obvious I'm ruined
It ain't seem to ruin you
I don't care what you're doing
Don't wanna know the truth
The only lie that I'll accept is that you wanna send a text
But something tells you not do it
But I've noticed that you're fine
I've seen that pic online
On social media your present
Are you searching for attention
Are you scared to feel alone
I am but won't confess it
It's like you threw a party
I didn't make the guest list
I'm just sick of constant guesses
How I'm supposed to find the answers
All you ever did was question
Everything I ever did
Was always for you
Everything we ever did
Is that all we could do
I think I'm still in love
With everything we could be
They say I made the right choice
But they ain't never seen
The way your face would light up
When I kissed you on your cheek
But every body leaves
Eventually

Am I alone here
Are you feeling the feelings I feel
Filling with fear
Afraid I won't be on my feet again
Afraid ima let all these demons win
I'm afraid to love but i want it
Afraid you may think I was running
But after I left
You seemed to move on and now you just do what you wanted
So I can't take all the blame for this
There's no one I'm pointing fingers at
But something tore us both in half
And the pieces don't break even do they
We both don't know what the others doing
A pogo stick
We go up and down
But we both know this
That it's finally over
Now you're probably no longer sober
Back to smoking
Back to drinking
Back to healing
Back to thinking
Backs are backed against the wall
You packed your bags and left in spring
The summers gone
And now it's fall
I'm bout to feel nothing at all
The pen is loaded
Hope I'm holding
Let it go
I can't it's hopeless
Things I held in
Found the surface
Every song just says I'm worthless
I swear I hurt myself on purpose
I swear to God I'm really learning
Every night I pray
I can find someone that stays
Cause