here, now

Don't worry so much
You know, there's really only so much you can control
And there is no point in worrying yourself
Because all you ever have is the present moment that you're in
Sometimes you just can't, you can't deal with everything all at once
You can't, and there are things that are gonna be out of your control
And you have to learn to let go

Sonic cinema, movies in the words I paint
Rainbow palettes, blank canvases in my world of gray
I let my soul speak, my soul got a lot to say
Tunnel vision, I was trapped but now I'm on my way
And when I rise I swear it's finna be a light show
Buy the fam a mansion man I don't even like those
Spent my whole life blindfolded on a tight rope
Highly favored baby, I can't ever be no side note
I got a lot left in my storyline, the glory's mine
Been in a shell, but now it's time to let my aura shine
I'm everything you see, ain't nothing I can hide behind
Always been too anxious but now I see all I got is time
My little homies look up to me like I'm really something
Spent too many days alone believing that I wasn't
I thought of suicide so much as if that shit was nothing
My little sisters eyes let me know I'm fucking bugging

I'm high now, high now
Higher than I've ever been
I'm high now, high now
Higher than I've ever been high

And sometimes you just kinda- not hope that everything is gonna be fine
But trust that, if not now, not tomorrow, not next week, but in time man
Just give things time

I feel like this the finish line, but I'm just getting started
My life feel like a movie, none y'all'll get to star in
I feel amazing, that ain't something I be saying often
Had my battles with my demons but we was just sparring
I get down but I don't quit, there ain't no bitch in me
I got too much to lose, cause imagine that, just picture me
Failure's not an option, can't leave without making history
And really it's a trip to me, I only have what's meant for me
Time is a luxury, I spend it on symphonies
And I don't write shit, this a verse heaven sent to me
I been a vessel for echelons here for centuries
I am not a man, I'm a passing of energy
I lost my voice and I heard voices, lived in fear and doubt
Silent screams, I was the only one to hear me shout
Became my friend, gave me a chance to finally hear me out
I'm finally here, but really I'm just here for now

I'm high now, high now
Higher than I've ever been
I'm high now, high now
Higher than I've ever been
I'm high now, high now
Higher than I've ever been
I'm high now, high now
Higher than I've ever been high

Yeah life comes in surprises
And happiness and sadness, they come in waves, they come and go
But I think what's important is to be the most aware
Not just when things are bad and not just when things are good, but both
You know, you're gonna have highs and lows
But I think it all balances itself out