Dear God

Hello
Uh, it's Ren
I don't really know how to start this letter... fuck it

Is this life really what it seems
'Cause lately I've been in this place between awake and dreams
I know I only reach out to you when I'm feeling blue
I promise I'm not using you, I'm just confused
I've got some questions I would like some answers to
Like is there meaning to this state of short existence
My existential thoughts sure hope there are, 'cause I'm resistant
To thinking that there won't be something better in the distance
And God, is there and afterlife where pain is non-existent
If you're up there God, do you sit upon the throne
Or are you a humble soul wearing sandals and tattered clothes?
Do you mingle with the people like an equal then on Sundays
Just kick back and chill and put your feet up?
Did I really choose this life that I'm living now?
Will my sins be forgiven if I speak them out?
I won't lie to you, God, if there is a heaven
I really hope I get there 'cause for real it sounds like heaven

Reading past the lines
I just let go
Searching for prophets, my faith it is paper thin
So many questions in my mind
They replay like an echo
They never stop, my Messiah is porcelain

Dear God
Why do people kill each other in your name?
Is it really what you want or have we lost our way?
'Cause it seems like religion can cause division
Or people living in prisons of moral values they're given
What is right and what is wrong
Am I a sinner if I don't comply with everything that Moses said
Or is that dumb
And why do people disguise hatred in your name
Homophobia, a history of violent wars, and causing pain
High priests in their towers stacking riches
Women burnt at the stake called witches
In the name of God, Allah, Zeus, Jesus
People claiming lives justified by your alligance
I think its more complex than good versus evil
I think that theres both darkness and light inside people
And through different eyes a man called a terrorist could
Be a freedom fighter if he's fighting for the side you're with

Reading passed the lines
I just let go
Searching for prophets
My faith it is paper thin
So many questions in my mind
They replay like an echo
They never stop my messiah is porcelain

So is it ignorant to claim that we know what you want
And if I fast for the sabbath is that what you want
Or is tradition just superstition,
Religion a human vision just crafted out of peoples ambition
Listen
I knew a girl that lost a baby before it was born
What is the purpose of that god
What is it for
Why did my best friends die before I hit 25
Is it cause there is something better in the afterlife
God, I've been feeling suicidal lately
Mental health is worsening
Feels like it might break me
If you're watching, you know that I've been strong
But God how much longer do I have to hold on
Please just give me some solace
So that I know you've got my back
Please just give me some relief
God, is that too much to ask?