Persistent

Lemme give you a story
About my different scores
From the top of my lungs, I'm shoutin'
Every word, I'm never that boring
I was tested right from the start
Never felt sorry, but I'ma go hard
Young blood with a pure heart
Achievin' my dreams, but that was the start
Of my hardest regrets, in search of replaceable parts
Thought I was invincible, I was despicable
Lately been difficult, I've given up
Lord knows I sank to the bottom
'Cause of the love that ain't gonna spark
I've fought with a life that I thought was a spar
Never thought twice, didn't plan all
All of the faithless jumps I made in my life
The decisions I've took without thinkin' it right
Like crossin' a road in the dim of a night
No pedestrian lanes, or lookin' from left to right
Speakin' of right, didn't you know
I was cheated in person, cheated my trust, without me knowin'?
It dragged me for weeks, the pain cut deep
Down to my bones, made me unknown
I was new to the problem that came to oppose
Nobody showed any signs of help
Maybe a few, but I was already deaf
It collected itself to come over and tempt
And as human as I am, it pulled my arms to the dark
To the wants and the sins of the flesh
Now look at its wake, leavin' all of a mess
I gotta admit, I ain't doin' no good
But all of 'em people lookin' and
Thinkin' and seemingly figured that I'm living my life
Normal and happily, as it should
Without realizing, I'm not happy with it
I was down and depressed, never masked it
But how could you know of my sadness?
When I'm facin' you and never asked me

About my day and how's it went
Everybody knows I ain't a zombie yet
But a void in my chest keeps beatin' me dead
And the fillings of my wounds takes a minute of my breath
Makin' money as a medic to suppress my stress
Pilin' pillars of my poison, puttin' pressure to my points
Pushin' every bit of poise 'til I lose my step
Now I'm all in debt, what's more in this mess?
I thought I've trained myself from all this pain I've dealt
I'm losin' my parts to an episode
I'm the protagonist in every show
Call me the cameraman, the producer, and the writer
We 'bouta film this drama, dawg
Yo, ready for a second season, y'all?

And that's when I figured my fuel
Gas to my fire, the purest of food
Never mistaken the pain and the feud
Given that this is the lesson I should
Be learnin' 'about, to lessen my doubt
That quenches the thirst, killin' the drought
To know my name, and end with a towel
The reason of rap I'm spittin' aloud, I'm
Never the main course, sever the fail order
Take it as a compliment, and make it as your base form
Ever since I felt the purest reason of my pain
I connected with my veins, let it go major
I was never kidding when I asked for a savior
Developed a mentality like a stone mason
Building every word without a bit of trouble
Kick a bass to another better level, I'm a risin' chaos
I'll prove my greatest credibility
And let the impossible be my enemy
I stood like a cripple with a face of a sinner
Now everybody's repeatin' and keep on tellin' me
That I became so different
I'm rippin' to be rude with a style to the killin'
Now, evolution became my only resolution
Everybody thinks I'm finished with my story without a conclusion, so

Don't ever think I'm as tough as a nail
I've ate my depression from head to the tail
I've taken the coldest of weather, the hottest in deserts
Through high waters, I sail
They made a fool outta me 'cause of my bails
But I persevered whenever I fail
Dealt with my past, now look to my trails
Persistent as I am, won't be overwhelmed
I never really created my alternate
I'm just split and already been altered with
Don't bet on the common outcome
Because it blends and bends to the alphabet
I've swept the room of full of elephants
Now I'm hungry, see me salivate
Papers full of writing, poetry's aggravate
Words are fillin' as I get agitated

And don't expect that I go so minimal
I made Lynical to be the not-so-typical
Filler to my side when I'm kickin' many rhymes
Penicillin to my virus creepin' in mind
My wordings get a bit too difficult
So please don't fence my ego when I have another visual
Because the Cynical 'bout to be so bloody physical
Poppin' and choppin' the battle
You think Lynical can't be a criminal?
I start to feel a lotta ill, I marked the deal
I'd prolly will falter 'til I lose myself
But I'm altered in, never watered down
To foster it, my anger
Grab another dosage, prick it to the boneless
Earn a little beating to get the thick of it mostly
The realest of my side never stops for you to focus, hey