Poison and Purpose

I'm taking my chances
Shooting my shot
Been stuck at the bottom
Look up to the top
I wonder if heaven is there
So what if it's not
I'm here for the journey of learning to better my thoughts
Bring 'em to life and decipher the code
That opens the box
A passion unfolds
A part of me's hoping
A part of me knows
I ain't been sleeping
My heart has been cold
These demons are creeping
It's starting to show
Gets harder to beat 'em
The older I grow
I'm addicted
I feel like I cant let it go
I was told if you want it
Start taking a hold
If you know it, don't doubt it
Listen to your soul
And I'm reaching for something
A fish in a bowl
A match in a cave
With no limit below
Out of the blue
Out of the madness and in into a bloom
A spiral of doom
Resembling truth that's bigger than you
Is looming ahead
The rabbit has fled
The fuck are you doing get back in your bed
You don't wanna see this
You won't believe this
This shit will leave you all broken in pieces
Fuck it, I know what you're thinking
I'm thinking it too
This world is on fire, inhaling the fumes
I'm smoking this purple, observing the views
The hurt and abused at the church in the pews
Praying for freedom and searching for you
Every person is worth it, I hope that it's true
But nobody's perfect, all of us choose
Our poison and purpose
I'm moving up
Doing what I gotta do to be good enough
Buckle up, It'll get rough
You see me down here at the bottom for now
But I promise in time, you 'gon have to look up
And acknowledge that I ain't been fucking around
I've been painting a picture of what I've been living
Using these sounds to deliver the vision
Take it a day at a time
Won't stop til it's finished
The tip of the iceberg of the real truth
Flipped over to confuse you
Now the main body's in plain sight
With a disguise to amuse you
A pyramid with no capstone
One third of the night sky
Defy light and abuse you
Man, life is so precious
Don't take it for granted
I take a puff of the jane
Jamming some Malcolm and swimming away
The circle of life is a cycle of pain
Desire the vision then you can obtain it
Wisdom is wicked if you never change
No limits are found in my brain
Fuck what they say, I'm aware of my flaws
You can't tell me nothing, a fly on the wall
Empires will fall to the ground
By the tip of my sword
If they threaten the life that I'm living
My family or children
No matter the cost
No matter the weather, I'll weather it all
You're fucking with me then you're bound to get lost
Better watch how you're talking 'cause bitch I'm the boss
On my way to the top of the game
Never stopping for lames
Better stay in your lane or get crossed
I ain't gonna fumble
I'll rumble your world
With the mightiest thunder
A shock to your system
I harness the power of nature
In love with the Savior
Insane but I'm making it work
Surrounded by angels
No demons can hurt me
With God as my light
I'm free