Against the Waves

I just
Need a bit of separation
I'm self-indulgent, so they say
Take a long look and watch the light
Arise in me
Though I'm far too tired to breathe

You don't
Look back on the things you did
So I won't
Take the guilt and blame for it
Take another look around

I'm a cliff against the waves
Why can't you see
This world wears me away
It drains all from me
And leaves me colored grey
I've been numb lately

Past the point of prayin'
I'm layin' alone
I'm past the point of prayin'
I'm layin' alone

Take a look back at all the things we did
The things we lived
When the world was so new and mysterious
I reminisce of all the days gone by and wasted time
We were both so young and resilient
But the clock ticks and we're all getting older
Our passions reduced to a smolder

I'm ready to live again
Done wasting time
I'm willing to make amends
Forgive myself for days in bed and sleepless nights
That I spent lifeless
Takin' steps to fix my life
I've changed, I promise
I promise

I'm soaked
Dressed in all the colors of the rain
So
I'm talking to myself just to feel sane
Waiting for the day
I won't be drenched in this

But I know
It takes so much more than blind hope
I'll make this new year better than the last
Because I'm through with living in the past

I'm ready to live again
Done wasting time
I'm willing to make amends
Forgive myself for days in bed and sleepless nights
That I spent lifeless
Takin' steps to fix my life
I've changed, I promise
I promise

I'm stained by all the thoughts of my father
And his father
And his father
I carry all the burdens of my mother
And her mother
And her mother

I know
I can make through another day
And another day
I know
I can make through another day
And another day
I know
I can make through another day
And another day
I know
I can make through another day
And another day