DOOR BETWEEN US (BLANK)

This was sposed to be on Colored
But I never let it go
I didn't know if it would go or ever give some hope
I set a goal, express some more
Don't let em stress your rope
You'll never know who listening
I'm givin in to pressures at the door
This is the perfect time to say I haven't been myself
I dissected my soul in three parts and made a cover
Three times a year they choose to converse wit each other
And make a deal to break the seal on rooms I've yet discovered
This is my opportunity
To rap like it's my last time before the opps come shoot at me
nightmares stopped in June and now I'm only dreaming lucidly
More control
My power to range emotions Mighty morph a soul
Could've chose violence thrice but chose the cordial role
And no one gave me credit or pat on the back
But it's definitely all my fault if I choose to attack
I've had a loved one ignore me while I rotted away
I've made leap and bounds for you you not entertained
So low that the floor could reach us
I would hold you right now but there's a door between us

Whatchu want is complicated you say it's the same
I've seen you pray for sun and then look for shade when it came
I wish God had told me bout him creating your brain
I wish I knew while I was meditating
Everybody's hopes and dreams and they expectations
A year ago today I'd almost quit and fallen short
How could you see me goin this hard and not support
They would never know the price of air or see our stress
George Floyd died, the video released on set
I seen an activist retweet it said redeem what's left
I seen the clip and said that's what I need to be on next, that's--
I'm passing out groceries to the families on the south side
Next to some city legends we never made it about pride
No one tryna rap not a lick, just passin bags and that's it
No shine or glory just passin formula to women wit kids
That type of story bruh
Imagine someone walking by that's poor and couldn't see us
Cuz we too proud in our privilege and put a door between us
Imagine
Imagine me choosing violence to lift an entire issue
The vapors from my weapon leave Vics while they cry in tissues
In light of clearing air tryna purify mindless vigils
The truth is your body gets humid if fire hitchu
The truth is your body gets humid if fire hitchu
The vapors from the gun
The Vic's from what I'd done
The truth is your body get humid if fire hitchu
You put a door between us while I cried and it seems
I'm a lot stronger cuz of it but why is it me
Stressin over all the things you don't realize till you see
There's a balance in it all while I fight you at peace
There's a balance in it all while I cry you in glee
There's a balance in it all if I fly you use feet
There's a balance in it all you say I I say we
And when my EKG goes flat there's a spike in my streams
This door between us has yet to make our hearts grow fonder
It's just something bout RIPs that make yo songs go harder I know
I know