Confusion

Lately, I, find myself locked in my room
Contemplating my thoughts
Not too sure which direction I wanna take
Always trapped in my thoughts
I Just

See I been trying to figure out
And see what life really bout
I know that you been having doubts
Sitting in your room thinking loud
Still thinking if my time is now
You never know

See I been trying to figure out
And see what life really bout
I know that you been having doubts
Sitting in your room thinking loud
Still thinking if my time is now
You never know

Uh
Still trying to find myself, still trying to gain my wealth
I'm still ten toes on the pavement I'm by myself, and It's still hard to ask for help
I'm rolling by myself no passenger
Blazed up, with lemonade in my cup
Seeing life for what it really is
So when I'm out I handle my business, hustling became my mental illness
I lost a couple of homies way back and I'm still in pain
To bring them back I'd trade Everything
Watching life pass by contemplating asking god why grandma never said bye
I must be destined for greatness and ain't no telling why
Think about it dog I'm still alive
Russian roulette, never that dog it's do or die
Cause I choose pain over suicide

See I been trying to figure out
And see what life really bout
I know that you been having doubts
Sitting in your room thinking loud
Still thinking if my time is now
You never know

See I been trying to figure out
And see what life really bout
I know that you been having doubts
Sitting in your room thinking loud
Still thinking if my time is now
You never know