Goin' Through It

They say the C-word's eatin' his body up
He's 20 and already running out of luck
They shot him up with a pile of drugs
Ain't been able to concentrate in about a month
In college with a full sports scholarship
First in the family with that exact accomplishment
Mama spent her young life caught up in a
Gig to get a fitting crib to raise a child up in
He told me "most people never live"
Said that death is liberating if you just submit
Every second is a gift our denial is deceiving
They don't even believe it til the moment that they're leaving
"Please Uncle Ali don't you dare cry for me
You don't know nobody partly as alive as me
My eyes finally opened wide enough to see
The sacred vibration surrounding me
It ain't the medication talking I'm not crazy
I already done started walking y'all can't save me
The greatest gift God ever gave me"
All this pouring out of my homegirl's baby

My people are going through it through it
My family goin' through it though it
Loved ones goin' through it though it
I don't know how they do it do it

My people are going through it through it
My family goin' through it though it
Loved ones goin' through it though it
I don't see how they do it do it

She got off all the drugs that she did (did)
It's borderline amazing that she lived (lived)
Husband and a couple healthy kids
Feel guilty for the ones that never made it through them years
But she said detoxing ain't the worst case
It's only so long that the physical hurt stays
Once you get them out your system then you're forced to revisit
All the reasons that you did them in the first place
They don't leave you may try to evacuate
So you skate "go on 'head and hit that, you straight"
If you make it back before it's too late surprise
Guess who's waiting right there for you when you get back
Years since her last hit of anything
Every now and then still feels ashamed
And still self-medicating by a different name
Really hope the baby don't inherit that specific pain
"I can't lie sometimes I wish I didn't exist
I think of all the flyness that I would've missed
I put that on the love of the kids
I wouldn't trade one minute of this"

My people are going through it through it
My family goin' through it though it
My Loved ones goin' through it though it
I don't see how they do it do it

My people are going through it through it
My family goin' through it though it
Loved ones goin' through it though it
I don't see how they do it do it

They had an anniversary to celebrate
It's gonna take a lot more than a dinner date
40 years in the game the feeling still the same
Children wave goodbye and hit the interstate
How them old school couples do
Bangin' all the music they first fell in love to
Think of all the experience they hung through
Something all them years struggling can't undo
He woke up to a close call
Driving through the night and he must've dozed off
Swerved to the right, lost control of the car
Hit a patch of ice on the road and rolled off
Last thing he remembers is the car rolling
Everything started happening in slow motion
When he woke up the whole fam standing over him
Nobody had to say it it was all on them
He attended the funeral in his wheelchair
He told them "I'm still here
And if you remain patient through the pain
When it's through doing its thing gratitude remains
There's very few things sweeter when your love is your wealth
I knew that woman longer than y'all have known yourself
There are no mistakes in beginnings and ends
So long my sweet friend until we meet again"

My people are going through it through it
Loved ones goin' through it though it
I don't know how they do it do it

My people are going through it through it
My family goin' through it though it
My Loved ones goin' through it though it
I don't care how they do it do it