Ivory

I've been through the fire, things that I have seen, I can't describe to you
I've been digging my way through the dirt, hoping it's worth the view
I've lived a thousand lives to get here, failed a thousand tests
Tried my best, but this path takes as long as my sins to confess

Wish I, could let go off all my insecurities
But it feels like I am growing older, and they grow with me
Stopped looking over my shoulder, I'm my biggest enemy
Only one way moving forward, only myself to defeat

I'm seeking that inner peace
A way to exit this reality
RIP shadows on the wall
They won't catch me if I fall
The more I know, the more I disbelieve

I'm finally back on my feet
I take a breath and feel the ground beneath
I noticed darkness turn to ivory
I still feel lost, but I won't give up
I know it's just the sunlight that is blinding me

Too much, too rushed to trust
I think I've fallen out of touch
I think of all the ways I was betrayed by what they told me
The ways I can no longer relate to the old me

I think of everything I've lost, everything I've gained
The ways that I tend to distrust my own needs
Longing for someone to hold me
When I just wanna get to know me (hard to kill the lonely)

As I decode my patterns with the aim to do better
There's no shame, only strength that radiates through this matter
A diamond's born under pressure
It takes time to see, it only gets better (hard to kill the lonely)

I'm seeking that inner peace
A way to exit this reality
RIP, shadows on the wall
They will catch me if I fall
Ain't no safe place, that's the irony

I'm finally back on my feet
I take a breath and feel the ground beneath
I noticed darkness turn to ivory
I still feel lost, but I won't give up
I know it's just the sunlight that is blinding me