the mailman

Startled, expressionless
Disbelief tugs on my sleeve at my doorstep
Hands in its pockets, leading me astray
Any minute now, it whispered on its way
I've come to stay

It's waiting for the right day
To dissolve with the pieces that pass me by
It reflects in their teeth when they burst with laughter
Derisively booming across town
It fights like a child, preserving the realm in its head

Isn't it nice, us sharing a flat?
You set up a post box and painted it red
Descend again, and flinch when our hands brush
Heads turn when we pass
You had me at "I don't know"
Lost me at "I told you so"
How 'bout we cut to the chase?
You used to be the light behind my eyes
So bright I was losing my face on

The right day
To dissolve with the pieces that pass me by
It reflects in their teeth when they burst with laughter
Derisively booming across town
It fights like a child, preserving the realm in its head

What do you think of me?
Am I the safest of bets?
And you could enter so easily
'Cause I let you in, in the first place
Now you're a part of me
Built a home in my head
You always show up for me
In places no one expects