Your Kind

Bring him to the fire
He's tired
That's a way you can justify
Reduce it all to embers
Then go back
To the start

There's beauty in this violence
But I sincerely cannot watch
I can see in him how I fell apart
How much ashes should be scattered before it's enough?

I took you to a lake, one sunny day after work
I dug a hole with my boot, afraid of being seen
And in that place I left you
Handfuls of dirt falling in your face
Took out a piece of paper that I wrote the previous night
And read it for you
"I hope you can rest, so I can too"
And I thought that was the end
But I underestimated the throbbing hole in my heart
Given to me as a child
This feeling was like a never-ending spiral
And I kept spinning
You know, next time, I'll skip the rituals
I know now some people just can't see how hard they damaged you
And that, right there, is closure enough

It's always the same
Your kind
Never changes
Resort
To the fiction
That is
Your affliction
Unkind and weak
I pity
Your faith
Nothing lasts
And it's all your fault

Hell I know since we collapsed
You'd walk circles around the fact
And now I know you
And now the mask
Portrays exactly what you are

Falling down
Falling down like we both
Never knew what
Came after the fact

Remember this song when you're falling down
This is the last time that I turn around
I hope that I'm right
This time