Slow Motion

Here I am, feeling the feeling I get
When I stare at the ceiling a bit too long
And I get too lost in my head
To recall the where exit is marked on the map
Try to learn back, take a breath 'fore I start to react
But it's long been a pattern I've had and it's hard to reject
Hard to connect all the dots when the line that I draw's in the sand
And I'm back on my bullshit, living out of compulsion
Set adrift on the raft that I crafted, ain't shit but to laugh when I crash
And it splits and I drown in the ocean
Oh shit, I'm back here again
With loneliness and go figure I found me a friend in it
Wanna crawl out of the den
But I don't know how to begin

I've been getting the notion
I've been living life in slow motion
Upside down

And outside in
Looking at the bigger picture but can't figure out where and how I fit in
How do I blend when all my colors so different from what I'm presented
And others will draw and affix?
It's difficult for me to mix without turning grey in the end
I could be doing more, I cannot do it all
But that will not do at all
I got a mountain to move
'fore I prove to myself what I'm doing will move the world
But I'll go nowhere
If I stay tripping on molehills
But these boots are steel toed and they're so hard to fill
Don't know if I will

I've been getting the notion
I've been living life in slow motion
Upside down

And inside out
When I open my mouth
I feel like I'm shouting but nothing but mumbles come out
And it bubbles and drowns, among an ocean of sound
But I been down, at the sea floor so long
I'm not sure how to get out
Don't know how to swim, I don't want to drown
But that's where I been, can't open up or the flood'll come in
So I keep all of my windows shut and I lit all those bridges up
And I burnt 'em all down
Now I got nowhere to walk, and no one to run with
I don't care I'm over 'em all
Okay alone in the dark
That's what I talk, but no matter how bad I want
To believe it it ain't true at all, naw
It's a fake, I don't know
How much more I can take
'Fore I break or, where to go
When everything is moving in slow
Motion