Love Me

Ain't no more pretending that you Fuckin' love me now
I ain't got no trust to give cause they all turned around
I see they like to kick and leave you when you falling down
But I ain't let it fall I'm rising without you around
So every time you see my name just picture me I'm rolling
Moving forward cutting weight that used to keep me slowing
It's a new day yea bitch it's a new me
I keep it solid you would know that if you knew me
I got a grandma she ain't hit me in like eight years
We share a birthday but we never shared the same tears
Wonder why some family missed it when I needed you here
And same thing with my dad man we ain't spoke it's been a full year
That's just life though
We juggle pain and walk across a tight rope
Hoping that we make it to light show
The world is cold and hell is hot this shit ain't lovely
I know you gonna judge me
Stupid dumb and ugly
I'd rather hear the truth than fakeness saying that you love me

I been trying to battle this hump
I've had depression since a kid remember feeling this funk
My great grandma said she seen it that my spirit was sunk
And she was right and I'm still feeling this stuck
My old friends showed their colors and they wasn't bright
People switched up acting different shit was overnight
I break bread not just to feed you but 'cause you my people
So when you changed up that shit hurt but I won't beg to keep you
Cause even Jesus knew that evil leaks in those beneath you
Can never trust again and really I don't fuckin need you
I moved up out my city seen the world a different way
Been through up's and downs on my own I made a play
I almost lost it all, I've built it up to keep it safe
But I'm still grinding, I'm still tryna find a better day
Familiar strangers that might recognize me think they know me
But it's a different man inside this skin but still a homie
You don't Know me

You know my name but you don't know my life
And few people understand what it's like
My progression never lessened I just needed some time
I just needed some time

I talk to this mic and call it therapy
Most of y'all just talking light for popularity
For me this is my art, my pain, my documentary
Manifesting from the struggle to prosperity
I hugged a stranger in the park once
A broken man he had been living in some dark months
Crying out for help and nobody would listen
Mister said he got a call somebody killed his sister
And it fucks me up
I still remember what his name is
Remember how the cries were only met with dirty faces
How not a single person cared and not a conversation
I wonder if he's here and if he pushed and really made it
The separation between humans and humanity
We need more education about trauma and calamity
I know that you can listen but I hope you understanding me
I really hope you understanding me

You know my name but you don't know my life
And few people understand what it's like
My progression never lessened I just needed some time
I just needed some time